KelLy小猪

Farewell !

2011-07-09T00:19:00.000-07:00

Ka hou farewell day today. Had a great dinner ! Grilled chicken & mushroom soup. Mmmmmmm~ Yummy ! It’s been a long time, since we sit down together and take dinner =) I like it I like it. haha. Everything is so good. Ka hou fighting ! Future so bright and we can see. Take care in a brand new place. We’ll miss you much much ♥

The Polaroid really awesome !! This would be my new favourite photo ^^

Love life. 这世界，需要更多好人。

2011-06-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

今天端午节！不过今晚的新闻却让我寒心。世风日下。人性本善？世界是有太多不公平，太多理由让人变恶。但是如果我们一起努力，世界会变得更好吧？Love life. 这世界，需要更多好人。

快乐的一天^^

2011-04-22T22:03:00.000-07:00

今天早早7am出门去~约了一群好朋友去跑步。我有一点睡迟了~但其实他们也早到了。哈哈。我们五个人一起出发~Jac 变迟到大王，因为太阳开始猛烈的时候Jac才出现。我们跑了两三圈，之后就一直拍照了。第一次那么早和朋友们一起去跑步，觉得很新奇，也很好玩^^

跑完之后，我，Jac, Ivy, Rebecca 就一起回 Jac的家冲凉。Pey 和 fungfung 就回他们自己的家冲凉~大家都满身汗。去到 Jac 的家，她弟弟妹妹都在。我和妹妹一起玩了玩游戏，她妹妹叫嘉萱。嘉萱很好笑，人小鬼大。一直教训我们几个，我们就一直在笑。弟弟 Samuel 就很帅~真的很帅，皮肤又很好~ Samuel 跟着我们一起去吃早餐，然后也一起去看戏。吃早餐的时候，我们迟到了~害到pey & fungfung 等很久。真的很抱歉 ><”

之后去带Yoyo放工才一起去 Suria会合香芸和他的韩国朋友~他的朋友是韩国人。前一天已经和我说会带他一起去。我一看到他们的时候，脑海里的韩国字全部不见了~很紧张很尴尬。哈哈。后来James, James 的女友，Clinton, Desmond, Elwin 也一起和我们看戏。我们看 “ The Roommate “。不错的一部戏。不过那位室友真的很恐怖，占有欲太强，也太爱她的朋友了。 Ivy 看戏看到一半就走出去了，她说太恐怖 ><” 其实看完之后，觉得还好。只是室友有一点变态。戏中女主角的男友很帅~~~ ^^ 因为是 18以上的戏，所以Samuel 一个人去看 Justin Bieber never say never了。Samuel 才十二岁 =)

看完戏之后，其他人全部去 Food court 喝茶。我，Rebecca & Ivy 就去找Pey 的生日礼物。想要制造惊喜，让她难忘~ 上上下下，真的没有什么礼物是我们一致认为是最好的~ 后来在三楼看到 Mickey 的 T-Shirt，觉得挺可爱，也很美，就买下了。本来想好要让店员帮忙送，但是店员是个马来人，怕她不是很会做表情~ 拖了一段时间后，Rebecca终于找到方法。全部就快速移动^^ 去到特定地点，我们用了特定的方法。结果……….不是想象中好。还有点尴尬。后来还是开开心心唱生日歌给她~而且还是在中央围成一圈唱。哈哈。我根本不敢看向别处，只是一直看着Pey. 但是她说很多人在看。哈哈。 Pey 只是吓到，没有我们要的夸张效果。比如说：感动到哭 xD

过后大家就准备回家了~ 等人站在旁边的时候，稍微和韩国朋友 Chris聊聊天。他说韩语真的是太棒了！可惜他明天就回韩国当兵了 =( 可以这样和韩国人说话，我真的觉得很幸运。他所讲的，我还听得懂，都是基本语，很好^^ 因为香芸要五点回的关系，我们决定先去 Tanjung aru ~ Chris 二话不说就讲要带我们去。但是他在 KK 有约，来回真的很浪费时间。他用韩语跟我说了没关系，也说是他朋友的妹妹（香芸）真的没关系。哈哈。我们全部就跟着Chris 一起去 Tanjung aru 了。我，Rebecca, Ivy, Yoyo & 香芸一起~ 在车上也一直问Chris一些生活的事情。我们好奇的事也挺多的~

到了 Tanjung aru 就和 pey & fungfung 会合一起喝茶去~ 喝茶聊聊天~ Pey 的心情不是很好了。为了和我们一起，她爽了别人的约。也有一些不好的事情发生。Fungfung也好像闷闷不乐~他说他很累 ><”

其实结尾，并不算太好。但是，今天我依然很开心！永远都喜欢和我的朋友们一起玩乐，聊天，八卦，大笑。谢谢你们！Foreverrrrrrrrrrr love ♥

P.s: 照片后补 ^^

=))

2011-04-20T21:14:00.000-07:00

喜欢自己开着车，上班，下班。早上睡眼朦胧，但是一到停车场，我整个眼睛会亮起来。工作那边的停车场是旋转式的，而且，窄窄的。下班的时候，总是在夕阳时段。车中的收音机陪着我的心一起跳动。每天下班，都很感激我拥有的一切。每天东张西望看向窗外，觉得这世界太美。上帝很奇妙..人，更奇妙。

下班后，心特别平静。最爱在差不多到家的那段路上，放慢车速。后面没有车，旁边没有行人。用 20 的速度行驶，很愉快，很轻松。

生活中，常少不了误会。误会，很想全力解释清楚，但有时，越解释越乱。我学会冷静面对，无必要的时候，最好不讲话。累了的时候，自然觉得一切已无所谓。

总是觉得自己无比幸运。有爱我的家人，有一班好朋友。

正在努力寻找人生目标中。很迷惘。你呢？正在向目标冲刺中吗？一起加油吧 =)

........

2011-04-15T20:47:00.000-07:00

我，有一堆话存在心里。说不出来？不对。是说也无所谓。

没有人懂。我想，不会有人懂。他们说的每字每句其实都重重撞进心里。

痛。我想的，是什么？是你们口中说的吗？

我的思想并不是你们口中所说的。说得容易，做却很难。

我无言，词穷。

请勿对号入座

~

2011-03-24T22:59:00.000-07:00

昨天，心情复杂的一天。昨天特意请假，去参加早上最重要的会议。在那里等了两个小时，不过时间好像一下子就飘过了。本来还以为要等多几个小时的~会议结果挺不错的。心情，不知道该如何形容。当时就是复杂。

会议之后，直接去学校拿SPM成绩。那个疯学校竟然要我们穿校服去。很奇怪，很不解。一开始听到的时候，我真的战斗力指数超标。但是我们又能怎样？爸爸和哥哥坚持要我穿便服去。反正有后台，我真的就穿着便服去了。哈哈。原来有父母一起的不用穿校服也行。还害我浪费力气生气。xD 一下子就轮到我拿成绩了~成绩一到我手上的时候，那个心情更复杂！其实也不是很差，但是和我想象的不同。脸上是笑，我的心却好像不断叹气。

之前呢，就和朋友们约好要去喝下午茶~难得大家都有拿假期。谁知道~~~~一个两个改行做飞机师。Yoyo&哥哥和我们一起吃KFC,逛十分钟街后就走人了~剩下我和Ivy&Faye. 虽然只有三个人，我们还是一样大吵大闹。轻松又愉快地度过下午的时间。很开心和她们一起。聊聊天，逛逛街。这个时间，我是一直一直笑着过的。时间过得也挺快的，也是一样，一下子飘过~

晚上还有韩语班的我，真的很累。心情也慢慢退落。不过！在这个关键的时刻，老师竟然带了韩服然我们试穿拍照。哈哈。看到韩服，我整个眼睛亮起来。第一次近距离看。真的。很美，很优雅，很朴素美。而且原来韩服的穿法是那样的~上韩语班，懂韩国越来越多。虽然累，但很喜欢！Myeong bak & Yuri 还交换性别试韩服。很搞笑！Myeong bak穿起女装真的很好笑。^^

过了一天，心情上上下下。我现在，没有梦想了。或者应该算是大梦想破灭，小梦想出现吧？我想为钱，为家人努力了。什么喜欢不喜欢的，没关系了。努力去做，一定可以的。让爸妈过得好，就可以了。我是这样想的。

加油吧！正在找寻未来的人，我们一起加油！

MY work =)

2011-03-13T13:47:00.000-07:00

I started work for almost eleven days now =) Not long but I feel so long already. Haha. Maybe because of every 8hours. It’s getting boring now. Not really have things to do. I’m still new. So just keep doing some base and simple things. I really hope they can teach me more, or even ask me to help them do something. ><” I like all the kind people at there. Most of them is young people. They very nice and look kind =) Teach me that two jiejie also very kind. They so cute and funny too. The most happy time in office is morning, lunch time and finish work time. hahaha. I like everyday morning should say “Morning” to everyone and they will reply you smiley. Wheeeeee =D

Pabo ahhh

2011-03-12T22:46:00.000-08:00

Was online-ing & playing comp just now. I see everything blur a bit so I keep remind myself “go wear your spec go wear your spec” But I still keep sitting in front the comp. Until just now my eyes so itchy and I rub my eyes for few times. I realize I have to go bath so I faster get up and walk in to room. While I look at the mirror, I saw I actually still wearing contact =___________= I never take it off from just now and I rub it. So all the action get me a red eye now ==”

Was trying to say myself really pabo in this article. xp I tell this to my bro just now and he say “等下弄坏你眼睛你就知道” ><”

Happy rain rain day (?)

2011-03-08T18:20:00.000-08:00

Just come back from work ! It’s been a long time seen heavy rainy day in KK =) Thunder, Flood all come out gather. haha. It’s everywhere flood ! My dad keep say “sei lor sei lor” haha. He scare the water masuk engine xD I feel so fun and happy ! Not “zang heng” or what laa, just long time dint see this kind of flood =) Somehow downside my home there got people “lot” bumper. xD I’m happy because of this a while heavy rain ! Haha. Have a good day everyone =) And all drivers be careful outside there =)

너무아파

2011-02-27T21:02:00.000-08:00

너때문에,죽고싶어

I'M EMO

2011-02-26T02:13:00.000-08:00

Emo emo emo-ing. Little red coming to town ? My sister say so. Haih. I hate “her” baa actually. But what to do ? Grrr

我想念，去学校上学的日子

2011-02-25T12:35:00.000-08:00

我想念，早上朦朦胧胧上学，一看到朋友就生龙活虎的时候

我想念，和他们一起哈拉

我想念，下课和姐妹们一起用餐

我想念，和姐妹们聊些有的没的

我想念，趴在桌子可以睡两节

我想念，老师看到你睡，让同桌朋友叫醒你的瞬间

我想念，课室的吵闹声

我想念，无聊时候玩的幼稚游戏

我想念，大家一起看着白板，抄着篇篇文章

我想念，他们教我数学，然后教到冒烟

我想念，有时我们上去，不然她们就下来聊天

我想念，匆忙地借书，不然就匆忙地抄功课

我想念，上周会无无聊聊的一节课

我想念，那阵阵笑声

Glory

2011-02-21T13:33:00.000-08:00

CAUSE YOU WERE BORN TO GO HIGHER, WE WERE BORN FOR ADVENTURE, SO DARE TO DREAM BIGGER, BECAUSE IF YOU DON’T HAVE A PASSION WORTH DYING FOR YOU HAVE NOTHING WORTH LIVING FOR.

Great day !

2011-02-14T01:52:00.000-08:00

Went to beach today with my Jamae. Rebecca, Xiang Yun, Yoyo, Jacqueline, Bing ru & Pey~ We went for picnic ^^ We actually worry for the weather when we plan for that. But thanks God, it was really very nice day ! Blue sky, white cloud, orang white Sun. Love it so much !

We prepared foods by ourself. Everything is so delicious. It also doesn’t cost us much. We not really playing games at there. Just keep on taking photo and chit chat. hehehe.

At last we still did play some game. I like monkey game the most. We laugh so hard. I laugh until my stomach ache lost. haha.

After the beach we went to see the music fountain in perdana park. Just opposite to the beach. It’s free. Xiang yun went back home so left us 6girls go for that. Lots of people went there. The music fountain not really nice as we taught. Boring some more. Cause keep repeating the same style. The music not so suite with the fountain too. Aigooo. But worth to see once. Just once laa. =p

Reach home almost at 8.30pm. I like to hang out with the girl friends~ Everything is so nice and we have fun. Hope to have more more event next time.

I <3 them ^^

We have the same earing ^^

Halo !

2011-02-06T18:10:00.000-08:00

It's Lunar new year ! Hehehehe. Sorry for the late post. Happy lunar new year to everyone ~ This year not so happening because my grandpa sick. Papa's papa. So we dint go to keningau. Many new year feel if at keningau there. Small town. Although still celebrate with other relatives. But no much new year feel.

My xiao yiyi come back from KL. With 姨丈 & her little daughter, Melissa. Very cute one. Everyone like her. haha.

Sister bring me to Church when 年初一. It's been a long time since I went to church. Once step in, they singing "这一生最美的祝福". The song that I know well. Really touch at the moment. I think I'm going to plan back. Hmmm.

Times fly fast. One week past like wind. Sister going back KL tomoro. Huhuhu.

Here some photos ⇩⇩⇩

This one is my cousin. Abigail~~

Little Melissa ^^

시크릿가든

2011-02-01T17:54:00.000-08:00

I just finish watched Secret Garden. Owww. I love it so so much. I used 4 days only to finish the 20episode. Really addicted. Now feeling like empty because I miss the character~~ Been searching there photo all around now. Wahaha

ㅠㅠ

2011-01-25T18:30:00.000-08:00

病了一场，非常大一场。辛苦到~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 不过现在好了。不错。正在慢慢调整。政府医院真的是~害我发了差不多一个星期的烧。后来去私人医院看病才好。现在健康都要用钱买 =___= 韩国课上了第四课。挺累人的。不过很有趣^^

P.S : I changed my blog skin again. hehehe. Again. Comment please ? =)

STOP !

2011-01-20T00:32:00.000-08:00

IN PROGRESS

STOP AND DON'T LOOK AROUND FIRST

P.S : It was a happy day today. Or should be yesterday. So I decided to change my blog skin. But I really out of time + I'm in fever now. HuHu. It's just 30% out of 100%. I'll finish it as fast as possible. Don't look around. It's messy =( Stay in tune and come back soon. Hope I'll give you a new and fresh feel. Thankssssssss a lot !

如果你想起我，你会想到什么？

2011-01-14T22:06:00.000-08:00

如果你也听说有没有想过我

像普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我

对流言会附和

还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

懂我的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温热

It's 2AM now^^

2011-01-09T02:00:00.000-08:00

Role model

2011-01-07T06:08:00.000-08:00

[News] Jo Kwon shed happy tears when he finally moved to a “good home” from a single-room at the basement

Jo Kwon is an idol star who receive lots of love and affection from viewers with his nickname “Kkap~Kwon”. He, who is always cheerful and makes people laugh, revealed a sad story of his own family.

Here’s Jo Kwon’s touching story of how he finally bought a house filled with sunlight for his parents who had been living in a single room at the basement for 10 years.

The day they moved to the single room at the basement

Jo Kwon was a skinny, short, fair-skinned, ordinary-looking elementary student with glasses, but his talent was not ordinary at all. He had always been the one who created excitement among his friends, just as he liked making people laugh with his antics. We wonder whether Jo Kwon began his ‘kkap’ ever since he was in elementary school~. If you think that Jo Kwon does his kkap just for the sake of a show, then we would like to tell you that it is a big misunderstanding. Now Jo Kwon is a 22-year old young man and he is the ‘master of kkap’ who makes people laugh like usual, but he kept his heart-wrenching family background hidden inside him.

Ten years ago, when Jo Kwon was in the 5th year of elementary school, his family moved to another house. “I was not anxiously happy when I climbed onto the truck that carried our stuff and went to our new house,” said Jo Kwon. The house they moved into was dark and cold and located under the stairs, at the basement. Apparently his family suddenly faced a tough time and had to move to a rented room at the basement. After they moved in there, Jo Kwon felt his mother had a hard time, although he was actually still too young of a kid to understand such mature feelings.

Suddenly one day a bunch of people came over. They shouted at his mother and father, pushed them around and caused quite a commotion. After that incident Jo Kwon vowed, “When I grow up and when I am successful, I will get back at those bad people.”

A few days later Jo Kwon accidentally came across “Park Jin Young’s Support The Talent, 99% Challenge” on TV. “If it’s how it’s done, I can do it too. I want to sing too,” Jo Kwon thought. A few days later he went to the audition with his father, and just like it was meant to be, he was given a chance to be a trainee.

At first Jo Kwon thought that if he made his debut as a singer he could earn a lot of money, pay off his family’s debt, and eat whatever his heart desired. But the reality was different from what Jo Kwon imagined. Time passed by and he was not given a chance to stand on stage. He often asked himself, “When will I make my debut?”, “Does this mean Kwonnie cannot be a singer?” and got frustrated. But his mother smiled and calmly consoled him, “Kwon-ah, don’t worry. You are doing your best.” Jo Kwon felt that at that time his mother probably also wanted to ask “When are you going to make your debut?” or “Are you really going to make your debut?”

Eight difficult years as a trainee

When he was a trainee in the company, he couldn’t earn any income and did not get any transportation fee. So he had to survive the day with 12,000 won that his mother gave him. Transportation fee back and forth cost 5,000 won, a meal cost 5,000 won, a snack cost 2,000 won. He lived everyday feeling sorry for his mother. At that time Jo Kwon was worried and thought, “Should I just quit this trainee life that has no promise whatsoever and take up a part-time job to help my family?” But one day during an evaluation at the end of the month Jo Kwon overheard that he would probably be cut, so he firmly decided to quit being a trainee. He went to the corner of his practice room, called his mother and started crying nonstop. But his mother said to him, “My son is working hard and doing great. But if you feel it is too much and want to quit, it’s alright. Whatever you choose Mommy will still be here and wait for my son.” After he hang up the phone he thought, “I only made my mother worry more.” So he vowed, “I have to work hard and succeed.”

That’s how he lived as a trainee for 8 years. A total of 2,567 days. It is definitely not a short period of time. He waited and learned, he held on and learned, he developed his skills, he prepared himself, and one day 2AM was formed and an album was released. The first performance on stage was drawing near. For a while Jo Kwon didn’t tell his mother about all that for he feared that his debut might be canceled. But then he finally called his mother.

“We… are making our debut. We are going to appear on TV now…, Mom.”
“Kwon-ah… *sobs* So Jin Young ssi did not forget about you. Thank him… Be sure you thank him… *sobs*”

His mother never even once wavered during those 8 years, always smiled and consoled him, and that day was the first time Jo Kwon heard his mother cry. After the unforgettable first ever performance in his life, his father and mother came to Seoul. Jo Kwon said, “That day my father, my mother and I hugged among all the tears, I remember we cried and laughed.”

“Finally I can afford to buy a house for my parents”

2AM’s mini album “Can’t Let You Go Even If I Die” was an absolute big hit. According to Jo Kwon, he could screamed in happiness because he had a packed schedule. But on the day when he had no schedule he went home. But he found his mother washing her hair with cold water. It was early spring and the weather was still rather cold, but he found out that their boiler had been broken for some time. His parents still lived at the single room at the basement. For a moment Jo Kwon forgot about his busy schedule and wanted to buy a house for his parents soon.

Then one day he got a call from the company. “Kwon-ah, good news. CF offers are pouring in!” After listening to the news, Jo Kwon quickly called his mother and shouted happily, “Mom! Quickly go find a house~. Go and find a house for you and Dad! I told you I would make lots of money and buy you a house. Since I can afford to buy a house now, quickly go and look for a house, okay?” But his mother just cried and cried.

Some time later, they actually went to a real estate agency and he bought a house under his mother’s name. And on the day when he got no schedule he took his mother to the department store. Ten years ago when they moved to the single room his mother threw away all their furniture. Washing machine, refrigerator, wardrobe, drawer, dressing table, he wanted to buy them all. His mother seemed like walking in her dream and happily enjoyed shopping with her son.

4th September 2010 was the moving day they waited for and looked forward to. “I couldn’t sleep all night and I couldn’t believe we were about to move,” said Jo Kwon. He was so emotional when he carried their belongings up the stairs that he couldn’t even describe his feelings.

The new house has three rooms, a large living room and kitchen. And there’s a lot of sunlight. After moving in their stuff, Jo Kwon and his parent sat on the couch and enjoyed their happiness.

“I will work harder and do better in the future to make Mom and Dad smile for a long, long time.”

Jo Kwon thought it was a good thing he turned out to be a singer. Because he can make his parents whom he loves the most in the world happy. And he intends to continue making them happy.

Letter to Mom and Dad
Up until I became a singer I had a hard time and I felt depressed,
but during those times I think Mom and Dad also felt the same way.
Just like how Mom and Dad has supported me, I want to support you.
From now on, I, as your son, will work hard, so you can rest easily.
I will always live well, always be modest to be loved by people, live a sincere life so you are proud as Jo Kwon’s parents.
Please stay healthy and be with Jo Kwon for a long, long time.
Mom and Dad, I love you.

-Written by Jo Kwon, the proud son of the proud parents

SOURCE: NATE but the original article is no longer there.
TRANSLATION by suzelle@IAMfor2AM - 2AM International Forum
PLEASE DO NOT TAKE OUT WITHOUT CREDITING.

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PS: A role model for me !! I always tell me dad & mum I wanted to buy a house for them a somewhere. Not as a singer, but as a Pastry Chef. I hope I can do it like how Kwon oppa do it. I cried when I read this. I think of my parents. Althoug we not really in the poor situation, but I also wanted my parents to be proud, to be happy. Fighting ! We will make our parents happy for a long, long time =)

Even them self cry a lot too =(

2011-01-06T14:18:00.000-08:00

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2011-01-06T14:00:00.000-08:00

Adam couple is leaving. I'm really feel upset on this. It's been so long. Chasing for the show, waiting for it, happy and cried for it. Maybe some people think we are crazy for those imagination. Just like my sister =___________= It's them. The real person with real feeling. Touch everyone. How many AC fans out of there. Tumblr Twitter full of the sadness smell. I cried too. But just like Adam couple said, WGM ended, but AdamCouple din't. Will hope to see adamcouple in other variety show. Any. Fighting for their other side too. Acting, singing ! One year and three months. We all feel thankful. Thanks to the adamcouple, WGM & every fans. Thanks God for letting this variety show could make up this successful. With the leaving of AdamCouple, WGM season 2 gonna end soon. So what's next? =(

Trip =)

2011-01-04T17:30:00.000-08:00

Had great 10 days at KL. With my family except for brother. He dint follow us go there =( At penang, we 5people sleep two single bed. Very small space and we sleep hard when the 2nd night. But still, OKAY. hehehe. Ate many nice food at there. Keep feel hungry and eat non-stop. haha. Getting fat~~ When you wanna go anywhere at KL, no place was really near. I guess the most time I spend at there is sit in car? haha. Penang trip is the most exhausting one. 6hours or 8hours I forgot. Dying when hot weather. Shop a lot at there. Buy something back. Most happy is I bring 2shoes to KL but I brought back 7shoes. Wahaha. Thanks to sis also. She give me 2high heels. Very nice one =) We already bought shirt for new year. Sound early ? KL on Sale. hehe. When coming back, my sis cry so hard. Make me also cried. We two silly girl stand on side road cry for 3mins? haha. Cry dao me so tired. xp When at bus, dad also cried. ahh ahh. If next year I really went to Taiwan, how would it be ?

How Great is our God =)

2010-12-19T00:10:00.000-08:00

Grrr

2010-12-15T13:38:00.000-08:00

Seems busy a lot ahh this few days. I wake up late today and forget that I’ve date with rebecca them. Uhh. Friday have PLAN A again. I started to hate it cause I cant handle it xD Saturday going to A friend’s party. Then tuesday going to KL ^^ To visit my sis and also for holiday. hehehe. I’m currently in bankrupt mode. Really bankrupt ! I hate it so much when I realize I got lots of thing to do but I’ve no money. Haiih. Economy merosot now. @.@

I have a tumblr now =) It's always same post with here. But just more. 2AM <3

kellyxiaozhu.tumblr.com

SORRY !!!

2010-12-13T00:20:00.000-08:00

原来真的有眼皮跳是吉或凶的事实. 不只是否刚巧？宁可信其有。

有些事情，想逃，怎么都逃不了。

想逃的那天，终于来了。我应该要再避的？没有了。不知怎么的，我比他还难过？三年了。多么长的时间。我竟然浪费了别人的时间。这么长的时间。

都怪我的自私。一心想着维持友情。却忘了别人有多么痛苦？如果时间可以倒回去，你还会那么盲目的爱上我吗？而今天也终于知道，你还是不相信。我试过多少次想要解释清楚。就好像有堵墙，想说的时候，完全挡住了。心里不懂重复了多少遍的"对不起"。但是该怎么办呢？脑海空白了。

你，是我第二个觉得非常对不起的人。我无法再说什么了。也不会再要求什么。只要你快乐就好。

泪如雨下。

Sigh !

2010-12-11T22:48:00.000-08:00

Today I go to do my plan again. Saw some friends there and I'm really so SHY about it. After today, then I realize, I really cant do it if only with few days. Haih. Delayed. Plan gonna delay now. Until next year ! Grrrrr. I'm really not okay with this ! But, I cant. I want to do in one shoot like what I've said. It cant be. HuH. Just wait. A tired day.

This two days keep heard and saw the same news. Repeat and repeat. Some people said it's wrong, some people said he very mighty for love, some people felt sad for it. I think no one can scold and comment on him ? It's his decision. He done it now. and it really be now. No turn back way. What should we say again ? Respect please.

I found that I'll automatically open the same blog and read for the posts now. Its like a habits. When I have nothing to do, I sure will open it. When I cant read anything, I'll started to think what he been doing ?
记得有那么一句话，
没有人会永远在原地等你。你走远了，不久，他也会起跑。Let it go, would you ?

♥

2010-12-10T16:49:00.000-08:00

I repost this story dunno for how many times already. I really love this story ! Sometimes people would do so much for another, but maybe It not really the others want.
有個惡魔路途中掉了一張面具
小女孩好奇的撿起來...看了幾眼就帶上去
結果惡魔面具依附在她的臉上掙脫不了
她變成了面貌猙獰的怪物
小女孩驚慌失措的跑回村子找母親
結果母親不認得她...還聯合村人趕跑她
女孩傷心透了
結果有個青梅竹馬的小男孩出現
出面認指她...因為他相信是那小女孩
小女孩得到有人信任...面具脫落
再度重回小男孩的懷抱」

[有沒有聽過啊?]她雙手繞著他的肩膀
髮絲垂落到他胸懷...身上的香味沁入到他的體內
獨特的香味讓他有種溫暖的感覺.
他當然聽過了...這故事...她不知說了好幾次給他聽了
[明天要不要為我送行呢?]他轉過頭望著她...
在她的耳邊輕輕的說
[不要....因為我會哭....]她嘟起嘴巴...
忍耐著不哭的表情...讓他好想笑
這一點就讓他覺得很可愛
他跟她都已經論及婚假了...
因為工作的關係...必須在國外做一年...
可以的話...他好想把她帶到身邊...
可是她的父母不准
[在國外,你都要想我喔！]
[會的,除了妳誰都不想！]
[真的?]
[保證~]
他捏著她的鼻子...輕輕蓋上她的嘴唇...
她的淚水不爭氣的落淚...紅暈的臉頰在燈光下更加紅潤...
他幾乎差點放棄去國外的深造
[別哭...為了妳... 我一定馬上回來,到時我們再舉辦很慎重的婚禮如何?]
[好...好....嗚...]
[別哭了,我會心疼的.我愛妳.]
[我也愛你.]今生,他只愛著她.
送別他離開沒多走...過了幾個月.......
她與朋友逛街途中...不慎遭到酒醉駕車碰撞...
生命一度垂危...好不容易救活了生命...
臉型卻變得可怕...
因為手術過程中...縫合手術失敗...造成顏面神經受損
她躺在床上哭泣著...
一張完美的臉失去...那又何必生存下去...
到不如一死了之...
父母望著她...一眼都不敢面對...
要不是有朋友支撐...她還無法就這樣活著下去
[這是他的電子信箱,要不要和他通信?]朋友好心的問
因為她自己的臉造成內心的自閉...不敢與人溝通...
就連心愛的他也不敢和他通話
[他很擔心妳,一直想知道妳的情況....]
[妳要我說嗎！！妳要我這張臉去說嗎！！
父母都不接受我...更何況是他！我根本.....不敢面對他啊....]
她摸著那張扭曲的臉像怪物一樣...
以前的她呢?不見了！
他有何感想?會不會還愛著她?還會喜歡她嗎?
她甚至不敢去妄想可以跟他結婚！
[這....也是試探他的機會啊！]
朋友勸說下...她終於和他開始通信...
可是卻沒告訴他真正的樣子...因為心裡很害怕...
緊接著...時間一天一天的過去...
一年的時間很快就到了
來信的他很快樂的敘述他們之間的未來...
她看了...心碎了...害怕了...
終於他回國的日子到來了...
在朋友的陪同下...她胸口巨大的害怕和不安...
但是內心有一絲絲想賭看看的機會...
是不是像以前她故事所說的一樣...他會認得出她嗎?
她帶著帽子,墨鏡,口罩...
來到機場...遠遠的一邊等著心愛的他入場
他下了飛機心情雀躍...
一年思念滿滿的充斥他的心...他對她的愛是無法說清楚...
過去一年和她通話...中間雖然中斷...
可是還是以電子信書來回...互相記彼此的思念...
一方面擔心著...
為何她突然失去消息?她的朋友也一概不說...
還是不管這些了...
因為今天就可遇見她...遇見思念一年的她...
踏入機場...人群穿梭中...他望著四周群找她的身影...
他相信...她不是毀約的女孩...
一定有來...踏開腳步在機場開始尋找她的人...
終於...在出口的柱子後方...
他看見她的背影藏在柱子後面
高興的他走過去...從後面抱起來
[想死我了！跑到這裡接我！跟我玩躲貓貓啊！]
[你.....找得到我?] 她聲音很小聲...彷彿要確定一樣
他感覺怪異...轉開她的身子...她怎麼遮起自己面貌呢?
[你....你..你還認得我嗎....]
哽咽的聲音從口罩底下傳來...
他心一驚...趕緊抱著她...
一定是發生事情了...不然她怎麼會這樣呢?
[我當然認得出妳啊！我愛妳啊！]
[那........這樣還會愛我嗎?]
在他的注視下...她拿下帽子脫掉眼鏡...最後扯開口罩
一張醜陋無比的臉顯現在他的眼前...
眾人的驚訝聲...此起彼落的聲音描述她的面貌.
他起先一楞...隨即笑開
他毫不在意...把她擁入懷中...輕聲呢喃的在她耳邊說著.
[好美.....我當然愛妳.]
他輕輕摸著她臉上大大小小的疤...吻如雨般碰觸那些痕跡就算臉變了...以前的她不在了...他依然愛著她
他和她開始籌備婚禮...雖然他這邊的父母不答應
可是他還是堅持著
因為他是真正的愛著她...
他愛她的內心...不是外表...
所以...一眼從背影就知道是她
回到國內工作...他為了快點進入狀況...常常都比較晚回家
所以...她經常擔心著...
就算他時常打電話來告知他的去處...
她還是會擔心.好害怕...
他會不會因為她的臉失去對她的愛...
她變得好自閉.完全沒信心
剛開始...她常常打電話給他...
只有一分鐘遲到...她就會開始詢問他去了哪裡?
有了懷疑的心...她變得有點歇斯底里...
甚至完全希望他不要出去工作
他皺著眉頭...好幾次想要說清楚想解釋
但是礙於她的內心創傷...他忍著不說
漸漸地...她變得無理取鬧...像個瘋婆子...
每件事情都要講理由...說了理由還是再度懷疑...
懷疑又再三的確認...一次又一次
他承受不了工作還有其他事情上壓力...
面對她那些指責莫須有的罪名
終於...他說了！
[別連妳的心也跟著醜陋了！]
他憤恨的說...走出去
面對他的指責...
她哭了...她也不想這樣...因為她好害怕失去他...
所以想辦法的困住他...沒想到卻帶給他困擾...
以前她不是這樣的...
臉醜了...心也醜陋了...一切的事情因為這張臉而變了
她決定要道歉...打了電話...他跟她說正在開會...
於是她來到公司...公司人卻說他沒來上班
她愣住了...
訝異著...再次打手機給他...然而對方未開機
她開始害怕...他是不是找其他女人了...
想到這...她皺起眉頭...因為她的胡思亂想所以他才會跑掉
所以改為擔心...她應該多信任他
然而在街上逛...對面隔著玻璃的咖啡廳...
很清楚的看到他還有另一個女人...
沒想到...她的想法竟然成真...
隔著玻璃望著他面對那個女人有說有笑...她哭了...
那個女人有著一張好美的臉...
是她以前曾經所擁有的...但是卻失去了
她好恨...好恨他！
他果然嫌她醜陋...嫌她不好看...他不要她了！
過了幾天...取消了婚約...他不知名原因...一度拜訪她的家然而都遭到拒絕..
她連他最後的解釋都不聽
就這樣又過了一年
她帶著這張醜陋的面具過生活...
直到她朋友再度勸說請她做手術...
她一再拒絕...至少因為這張臉...
她可以看清很多人的真面目...
可是,她的朋友不死心...一再的勸說下...
她跟朋友還有父母來到日本動外科手術
朋友強調這是很有名的醫生...絕對會整形回來
她笑了笑...抱著賭看看也無所謂...
不過是一張皮而已
過了12小時的手術...又過1個月的修養...
她跟朋友一起打開了面紗...
一張熟悉的臉出現...是以前的她！
以前的她回來了！
她苦笑著...以前的臉回來了...可是他卻不在
從此她過著另一個生活...另一個重新的開始
她的生活圈變大...認識很多人...
也結交一個與她可以廝守終生的人...
她不要愛情只要幸福...這張臉就是給她美好的幸福
跟著論及婚嫁的男子...
她來到日本...想跟幫她動手術的醫師說謝謝
剛好...醫院裡給她答覆是那醫師不在...
她待了許久...醫師終究沒出現
轉開腳步...正要離開醫院
忽然在轉角處...不小心碰到一名病患...臉上都是包著紗布
[對不起...]她以不流利的日文說著
只見那病患似乎很訝異看著她...隨即衝忙的離去
她似乎想什麼似的...
抓著那病患的手...依然用著不流利的日文說著
[這裡的醫生很好,給他們動手術,你的臉就會恢復原狀...
看！我的臉是在這動手術的！很漂亮吧！]
[........]病患沒說什麼
未婚夫在門口叫住她...
她對病患笑了笑...隨即走出醫院外
望著醫院門口...看著她臉上那副幸福的笑容...
他默默的流淚
忽然...女醫師出現那病患的身後...
很正腔的日文說著
[你真愛她,為了她,捐出自己的臉皮...然而她卻不認識你.....
一年前開始就找我希望動這手術,這結局你滿意嗎?
不過我可以免費把你的臉恢復...]
[不用了...她認不出我就算了....
讓我帶著這張面具活著吧....]
病患含著淚...
她剛剛接近他時...留下的那股獨特香味讓他感覺更孤單.........

小男孩後來撿起惡魔的面具...
想試探看看那小女孩會不會認出他
然而小女孩不但嚇哭了...還要他別接近她
小男孩就帶著那張惡魔的面具,可憐的活一生..........

It's finally !

2010-12-10T15:01:00.000-08:00

After tuesday, I'm finally finish the long and hard war. SPM. Really not very excited like wanna throw bags burn books. haha. Just have many plans that queuing now after SPM. Lots of plans. The first plan is coming so fast. and it's a BIG SECRET. After I've done it, I'll straight post up about it. Wahahahaha. I really excited about it. But to do the plans really make me exhausted ! I'm gonna do it in ONE SHOOT ! *bang !* I think I'm almost crazy now. haha. In the period that I stop blogging. A lots thing have happened. Like yesterday I re-blogged. The first post is how sad. I'm using 2AM as my energy now. My sis & friends asked me why do I like them so much ? There's no a perfect answer. Just no reason. Fall in love in one mins. keke. I will blog more from now on. I'm getting lazy and getting fat. Uhhh. I need more power ! After tuesday, no more School ! Say "hoooorayyyyy" people? haha.

May God bless everyone in this world. The good one =)

痛心 !

2010-12-09T22:33:00.000-08:00

Ever watch the people that suicide for their love one in movie or drama. But this really happen around us. So people said : 人生如戏.

My heart was "BOOM" when I saw this.

and I was really feel "damn" when saw the note he wrote for the last. I guess everyone was seeing and knowing he countdown for that but why would it still happen ??! Sigh !

No one would know how he really feel. No one can blame anyone.

Hope you will get lots of lovess up there. Hope you really release yourself and always smile up there. Rest In Peace, dear friend.

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=181668725179222&id=754228704

26th Oct 2010

2010-10-31T23:17:00.000-07:00

Unforgettable day ! Touchily, excited, happiness day.

Sister called at 12am and sang birthday song to me. But I was almost in sleep. Haha. So I'm hearing it in blur blur mode.

Brought best mood to school that day. Once get into classroom, Clinton and Ka Hou said "happy birthday" to me. Then the whole morning, I heard lots of "happy birthday". Some friends sang birthday song to me. Love phan's trick the most. Because he did one set. Sang birthday song, then he ask me to blow candle, wish and take photo. Of course, is use imagination one. Haha. Ivy whole afternoon also keep play and act crazy with me. Made my mood up up^^ My friends had a celebration with me in school after finish school.

Before the real start for celebration, they seems preparing something in classroom. So Ivy accompany me to wait at backstairs there. Talking lots of crap but we both have fun with it. Haha. We took some group photos. It's my special request. Dream for it for so long. A friendssss photos =) Funny and have fun while taking group photos. Because we very mess and boys felt a bit hard on what and how to do. After the photo session, Kianna went home. If she stay long a bit more with us will be great =((

Then X yun suddenly cover my eyes, and leading me to classroom. Feel scared at that moment cause I have no idea on what they want to do and what will I see later. When X yun leave her hands and I opened my eyes, I saw cheese cake and Hello Kitty cupcakes !! Nice one ! Cute and beautiful ! Feel touch at the moment that I open my eyes and they sing birthday song for me. Share the cakes and played the cream. Haha. The cheese cake is really delicious ! They tell me bought it at lints "DELICIOUS". Recommend !

Jac ask me to sit down suddenly. Ask me to ready for receive their gifts. I get shocked because I taught the cakes is the all. Awwwwww. Present giving start by Ivy first. She gave me Hello Kitty's handkerchief & little brush. Totally cute ! X yun gave me a diary book. She wrote some little story about me and her. From primary school until now. But not all. She told me that too much story between us so she cant write all. Not enough time also. It's okay yaa X yun ^^ Jac help Jeff to give me a box of present. Inside have a book that we ever read and play together at "Times". Little pack of chocolate. One star bottle that full of handmade stars. Mickey and Minnie file. A letter from him. Then they tell me the cupcakes is also from him. @.@ I suddenly dunno what to say.

Ppey, fungfung, Ka hou, Clinton, Tantan, Desmond, Elwin & Yunsheng gave me a big album. When I open to the 2nd & 3rd page. Straight cry. Very touch ! Thats my family in the album ~ Wishes from them and lots of friends too ~ Much much much touch feeling. Fully warm in heart. Fungfung saw me cry then very happy. He keep say "I win liao I win liao" Haha. He feel happy because I've feel touch by the present. Girlss gave me a album too. But that's fairytale of me. Read those words from them and cried.

They really put many hearts and works on these. I dunno what could I do or what could I say. Just really wanna say THANK YOU ! Thank you all *1000000000000000000 times ! Photo session again after that. Then celebration over. Really thanks them so much. I love you all !

After reach home, I read the letter from HIM. Found that there still have two necklace and one bracelet in the bottle of stars. Stare blankly on the necklaces for 3mins ? Totally speechless. Thanks him much.

At night, dad and mum bring me to Korean restaurant. Told them before that I wish to go for Korean foods, but then changed mind because scare them does not like the food and Korean foods quite expensive. But they still bring me go although I said like that. Neomu kamsahamida abeoji & eomeoni ! Korean foods taste great~~ Nothing special except those sauce. The soup quite poor. Too sweet. Just like drinking dessert water. ><" Bbq beef and rice cake was the best ! RM120 for we 3 person. Expensive not ? My dad say expensive @.@ Gorgor dint celebrate with me. Go for movie with his DEAREST friends =(( No comment !

Dad and mum gave me present too~ It's instax mini 7s ! Love it so so so much ~ But the film really expensive. Rm3++ for one photo. Yes. Just for one. *.* A wonderful day ! I never taught these all things. Simply wanna celebrate and have a few present only. Really ! Much feeling that cant describe well if only in words.

Again. Thanks to my family and friends !
拥有那么多的朋友，我觉得很庆幸．一个知己已经很难得，何况是那么多．谢谢他们为我准备的一切．Super duper 感动．友谊永固！我们要在一起很久很久^^ 谢谢爸爸妈妈～让我生在这个家庭里。充满着满满的爱。谢谢你们，把我带来这个世界，让我活得那么幸福。感谢主！感谢我身边爱我的人，我爱的人～　

我１７岁了！

^^

2010-10-28T23:46:00.000-07:00

Will update about my birthday soon. Too much thing that want to say and write =D Kidae zu se yo ^^

Finally !!

2010-10-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

Omo ! 2am Saint O'Clock album was finally released ! Neomu neomu neomu neomu chu wa ! Love all the song. Love the concept. It's really nice. Cant wait for tomorrow's music bank. 2am comeback stage ! 2am hwaiting ! Jokwon , Seulong, ChangMin, JinWoon hwaiting ! Love you all ♥

=((

2010-10-27T16:33:00.000-07:00

Really miss monster much. Again. Just miss. Nothing else. *Sigh*

Papa's birthday !!

2010-10-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

今天，是爸爸的生日！星期日的时候，和姑姑一起做了蛋糕.是送给爸爸的.因为真的不知道该买什么送他，所以，手工制作是佳选^^ 蛋糕是橙子口味.很香，很好吃，我很喜欢.哈哈.但是爸爸说有点苦.可能是橙皮的关系.做蛋糕的时候，也顺便做了 Muffin 给朋友们~蓝莓口味，也很好吃！=p 那天，姑姑特别为爸爸做 Party 庆祝~小小的家族Party^^姑姑说要这样的时候，爸爸还一直装傻问为什么要做Party？还一直问是谁的生日.哈哈.Party没什么特别，就只是因为小不点在，气氛特别愉快.吹蜡烛，切蛋糕的时候，小不点一直说她要生日.我们还特别为她点多一次蜡烛，唱多一次生日歌 xD 爸爸，生日快乐！虽然当天你好像没什么表现开心，但是，应该是开心的吧？要开心噢！希望你长命百岁，永远健康快乐！我爱你！

P.S : Will upload some photo of today. Photo too big size. Will upload it when free ><"

人生两大重事

2010-10-23T23:02:00.000-07:00

一整个早上都在学校玩闹.现在没有怎么上课，老师都在改考卷.在课室玩到最开心的是"火车火车". 算手指的那一个.虽然是小孩玩的，但是我们玩到挺开心的.笑到累.哈哈.开心的过了在学校的时光.放学去吃饭的时候，妈妈突然告诉我，公太过世了.这是第二次，身边的人突然离去.公太很久之前已经病重，相信这样对他也是一种解脱.但是突然的是，我星期日才刚去探望他. =( 吃饭过后直接去殡仪馆，我看了看躺着的公太，婆婆问我: "就像睡着吧？" 对啊.人生多么奇妙~ 星期六早上，公太出殡. 我第一次参与全程.公太四代同堂，所有子孙都到齐.在握手的时候，有个亲戚还跟我们说，公太很有福.最后一次瞻仰遗容的时候，看到婆婆哭得厉害，我也想哭了.公太去了神的身旁.也做天使了~ 一路走好！

晚上，参加了爷爷，爸爸他们朋友儿子的结婚晚宴.爷爷，大姑姑，大伯伯，二姑姑都一起去.晚宴没有什么特别，就吃的很饱.哈哈.爷爷依然那么严肃.但是，我每次都感受到爷爷很温暖.

一天里，我参加了丧事，喜事. 人生有两大非常非常非常重要的事. 喜事 & 丧事. 那天，众亲戚会齐聚一堂，见证那最重要的一刻.

充实的一天啊~

Zeong mal kidae !!

2010-10-22T18:49:00.000-07:00

Cant wait for 2am new album. The teaser really touch my heart. All crying. =( and I love the song so so much !! Music bank also preview 2am comeback stage. Wait for it ! Album release on my birthday ^^ 26th Oct 2010 ~

JinWoon

Seulong

ChangMin

JoKwon

Totally addicted~

2010-10-07T23:22:00.000-07:00

Recently very addicted to "我们结婚了" @ "We got married" Watching season two. Love one of the couple so so much. JoKwon and Gain. They're so real. Cute and lovely. Sweet sweet~ I wish they really were together in real life :D

Exam. Not really fine. *Sigh*

A video I love so much recently. Music Video. Nice ! Keep repeat and repeat everyday~ Love the song. Suggest :p

Rest and Go !

2010-10-02T22:53:00.000-07:00

Working hard on searching sample of BM karangan at Google just now. Keep want download the "pdf" documents. Hate it @.@ But finally, I did search some. Exam on Monday. Excel 2. Stress stress stress. I dunno how can I pass all my subject in PMR. Or I just tooooooooooo lazy when form4 ? Sigh. Big big fear to SPM. Just wanna relax some more but I know I've out of time. Fighting fighting !

This afternoon watched "Legend of the fist.Return of Chen zhen with dad and mum. At center point. Goshh. I ever swear that wont go center watch movie again. Dirty ! Really dirty ! Last time my cousin and friend both been bite by dunno what kind of insect. Something like "kutu". But what now. I cant watch this at Suria. Because 18 and above just can watch. and they so straight on this. Sometime will check IC. Take risk if you go and buy but could not go in to watch @.@ Just center no this rule~ :(

A nice movie. Not really superr nice. 4 of 5 star. Donnie yen were niceeeee~ Hehee. Some photo of the movie here :)

I accidentally saw HIM today at center there. I get shocked because when I turn around then we both did saw each other. We both still act like stranger, just pass by side. Grr. Sometimes will think something of both of we. I'm not really miss. Just suddenly think of. Nothing left. No more trying no more crying no more hurt no more pain.

Suddenly wanna drive so badly. No reason.

Going to sleep now. Rest rest rest. After that, work hard again. Tomorrow, account. Jia you jia you ! :D

我会很想你们的！

2010-09-30T17:45:00.000-07:00

太快了！太快了！明天就是 1st of October. 再过两个月，我就不再上学了。再过一个多月，就要 SPM 了。总怀念一些些我们这群朋友间的事情。从前，现在。以后？现在不再像从前了。我们以前，是非常好朋友。现在，有些反目成仇，这个不爽，那个不爽。有些，不再是那么好了。从以前的团体，变成现在的个体。但是，至少，我们互相还有联系。我从来没有遗忘任何一个朋友。没有不要认任何人做朋友。可能有时候会在背后不喜欢，但是到最后，我还是觉得你们是好的。不会觉得 “少了也不怎样，还有很多朋友嘛” 你们每个人都有特别之处。优点，缺点。都是不同的你们。我这个人超级健忘，所以很害怕，毕业后，我可能会忘记在学校的美好时光。毕业后，大家都不会再天天见面。要Gossip，要聊天，都不能再说 "明天在学校跟你讲"。千千万万个不舍。不晓得毕业那天，我会不会哭得厉害。=( 我真的真的会很想念你们的！Love you all lotsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss !

Saturday !

2010-09-26T21:55:00.000-07:00

Today go for test of car LAW. Computer that one. Yesterday 2/3am sleep, today 8am++ wake. But I din't like dead fish. Almost got 90% energy. Hehehe. I've read the LAW book just for once before this. xp Cause I really did not take serious about it. But today, since I wake up, I take the book in my hand. Hahaa. I'm one of the kind of last minute peoples. :p

Luckily my brain still not really full. So I still able to remember some of the important Q&A. Go to breakfast with dad just nearby house there. Then straight go to the LAW test place. I went there at 10.30am++, wait almost one hour, then turn me.

Really very nervous when I go into the computer place. I sat down. and pray. I pray to God for let me do my best, and hoping I can pass it. I slowly read all the questions, carefully answer it. Until last, when I finish, I scare to click the "YA". Because after that, the result will show out. So scare there will write "GAGAL".

No matter what, I still have to click it. So I clicked. Guess what ? The result is 43. LULUS !!!!! My heart almost jump out at that moment. Although is just a computer test, but I just wanna pass in first time.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah ! Hahaa. When I take the result paper from the people, the people say "tahniah". My heart and face keep smiling. Haha. Then I straight call my dad and tell him that I've done it and passed ! He taught I lie because I was keep laughing. xp

Then, I wait my dad at the place for two hours. This made my happy mode gone. Cause dad go work for something, so he cant get back to there and fetch me. Then I waited for two hours. Angry of it for a while.

Mummy went to Kudat. School trip. For a whole day. Nothing special more on that day. Except my test passed :p

Friday !

2010-09-26T21:22:00.000-07:00

{ 24.09.10 }

中秋节晚会 ! School's. 决定要去的时候，还以为是无聊的一个夜晚，无聊的一些节目。到后来，不是 ! Great !! 觉得去了很值得^^

没有买票。因为觉得很浪费。所以刚刚进礼堂的时候，我们超级像偷渡客！进去的时候很惊险。怕被赶出来就会羞羞。哈哈。过后当然有成功进到去。后来就自由出入了。因为工作人员都去休息了~中秋晚会有很多东东吃~ 放眼望去有几个摊子，还有luk luk。但是当我和Ivy要找食物的时候，又觉得好像没有什么。@.@ 然后看看节目表，原来有几个不错的节目。

Nicholas当晚唱了"掌纹"。好听！而且他一出场，觉得他当晚特别帅。哈哈。我拍照的时候，还听见后面有人说“很liang zaii哦” 真的！

当晚的戏剧是“江南四大才子” 好像是那样的剧名。我不大记得了。哈哈。很好看！很好笑~ 他们还很聪明。戏剧分为上下两集。看完上集，让观众很期待下集。听说剧情是晓倩编的。超厉害的~

在节目表上看到“现代舞蹈-Fewesome crew” 就知道是Malcolm他们那一群。令我很期待。他们的表演，也不负众望。棒！真的是要现场看的人才知道多么厉害+好看。希望他们以后都能继续这样的舞蹈。把它发扬光大^^

哥哥他们当晚都有来。不过我们聚在一起不久，他们就先离开了。不知道跑去哪里玩~可能觉得很闷吧。我们几个在那边也不错。有说有笑。也有拍照^^

之后精彩的是"现代舞蹈-Bonamana" 知道是Adrain有参与，但我不知道，原来是 Heritage 那班弟兄和他一起跳。看到的时候，有点惊讶。也让我想起教会。拍照的时候，我从头到尾嘴角都是上扬的。哈哈。他们，也是一个字，棒！而且，他们个个都很帅！Ivy 还对其中一个一见钟情。哈哈哈。:p

最后就由戏剧下集作结尾。我们就坐在台下看到完。嘻嘻。

彬如和嘉琪当晚很美！两个齐齐穿旗袍。美美~~

中秋晚会结束后，我，Fung, Ppey, Faye & Aaron 本来打算去看精武风云。谁知道~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~去到Suria戏院，买票竟然要Check IC。==" 武打片都要18以上才能看。气炸！Aaron又不想走来走去，所以就取消了。DISLIKE！！

每次，不知道去哪里的时候，通常就是喝茶，网咖。刚好就是不知道要去哪里，又刚好我肚子饿，Aaron胃痛，所以我们就去Damai吃东西了~ 奇怪的是，我和Ppey莫名地想要去Salim吃东西。所以，Aaron在富源那边吃了，过后我们又去Salim吃东西。哈哈。气氛还不错~

过后就去Cyber X。Meet一下ah tan & Clinton。 Ppey和瑜惠不想玩电脑，就走出去聊天了。我玩了不久，也出去了。因为很闷一下~出到去，才知道，她们在聊 “男孩VS男子VS男人” 。很喜欢Ppey所说的！真的是很有道理。她好像挺懂男的。哈哈。目前为止，我们遇到的，不是男孩，就是男子。男人？还要再等等呢。那天所说的，令我感慨。聊了不久，fung & Aaron就出来了。真的很想在和她们聊聊！但是，是时候回家了~

差不多两点++，到家。疲惫的一天。明天去考LAW !

16.09.10 ..... 完了

2010-09-25T17:51:00.000-07:00

平静的结局。我以为我会泪声俱下。我以为我会不舍得。我以为我会后悔。但是，完了。就这样，完了。还想怎样呢？

15.09.10

2010-09-25T16:36:00.000-07:00

Attended to Nicholas 17th birthday. At damai club. With ppey & fung. Then aaron join us cause he still sleeping when party start @.@ It's my 1st time went into damai club. Before this, I always taught there was somewhere very lan C 1. Haha. But actually not. Class place :p Nothing really special but great =)

Sweet sweet~ :D

Watch STEP UP live at there. Haha. Those B boy dance there. They really awesome ! Very nice ! Geng ~ :D Dinner, dance then Karaoke. Quite funny when karaoke. Cause them randomly sing. Hahaa.

We leave almost 11pm++ if I wasn't wrong. After that. Went to Frenz cafe. Yum cha yum cha~ Met yoyo, sern, gorgor, sylvester, hoho, kimberly & nicole. Many people~ Haha. Chit chat at there. Talked about crap, jokes and also my love.

Love life face big problems in that night. Should say one week ago. Problems shown and I've chosen escape. I chosen not to think, not to talk about it. That night, I dunno why, tears just kept calling me. If you say I don't love him, of course not. Although we have problem, but what, sure still love a little bit. Isn't ?

That night them all keep console me. They tell me they will support me. Really touch when they do something, tell something to me. Very very very glad that I have a bunch of friends like them :D Thank you all ! Thank you God. For letting me to meet these peoples. Thanksssssssssssssss. They bring me go visit ah guaa lagi. xp

I went home after that. Alone in home again made me think this and that. I cried again. Ppey come to home accompany me that night. Overnight in my house here. Hehe. Feel better because she come.

We both play comp until 5am then sleep. Really tired @.@ Gorgor very kind kind to me. Cause he sms sister tell her to call me and sayang me. Thanks gorgor, thanks jiejie^^

碎

2010-09-15T15:05:00.000-07:00

我，终于感觉到痛了。好久没有这种感觉了。想哭，但是哭不出来。我无奈。单方面的思想，传来传去，变成好像是事实。为什么这样？为什么拖拖拉拉？你以为呢？不想说的原因有太多。你自己伤害了你自己。头脑太多空间吗？还是太闲？真的是够了！两个人的事，你却把它变成故事。心事不是只会对一个人说吗？我现在变大坏蛋了？变成你想的，你说的，大家都以为是这样。那我呢？我的想法呢？哭到无底洞。心痛。累了。说清楚，就再也无法挽回了。我曾经以为，我会度过这冷淡期。我以为，我们可以再次的好起来。我以为，我爱你，就够了。是你，你让我恨你了。今天，我恨你了。我会过得更好，更好，更好。这样的事情，不会再发生第二次了。我不会允许我的心，一再的破碎。

蔡依林 - 無言以對

2010-09-14T17:40:00.000-07:00

窗外天亮了
房里还是有点黑
一整夜阖著双眼失眠有点累
转过身我拥抱著双人床
孤单的棉被
清晨这一刻谁陪你喝咖啡

爱情璀璨后粉碎
像流星滑过后下坠
你说我们是同类
你缺少的我无法给

你把爱作废藉口多刺耳迂回
There's nothing left to say
你沉默流泪
是不是无言以对
There's nothing left to say
就算心碎就算崩溃
就算难过那么深邃
别给我安慰
那只是美丽的虚伪
There's nothing left to say

谈错对比是非
究竟还是无路可退
说不恨你那是自己口是心非
无所谓无所谓
回忆却像只贴身鬼魅
无处躲多狼狈

P.S : I love this song !

09.09.10 ♥

2010-09-10T15:58:00.000-07:00

Engagement day of William & Princess. We attended. Me, aaron, Sylvester, brother, Hoho, Kimberly & Nicole.

Held at menggatal. Guess is Princess's house. =) Before that, taught I cant go because dad don want let brother borrow car to go. After I begged for so long, then he let.

Had breakfast with family. Abigail them too =)

We reach there at 11am++. Menggatal. Waited for so long again. Because they have prayer for a baby and for the house. From 11am, wait until 1pm.

Very hot in there, fan like nothing. Haha. I dunno why. Hot + bored. Really bored. Luckily we not few person only. Still can chit chat and play.

Engage process at 1pm. Just a simple progress. 互相套上戒指. I saw happiness, through my eyes. Hope they will happy forever =)

After that simple engagement, we went to Yipo's house to see those animal. Haha. Because her home just nearby, and many animal in it. Like a little Zoo. But we only see pigs and mynah. Because of rain rain~

When on the way to Yipo's house, we saw a very nice view. Then all go to take photo. When we all out from car, rain so heavily ! When we get into car back, stopped rain. ==" But We already leave the place. We all straight " Heiyerrrrr !" "Uii !" Then laughed. Haha.

Went to Damai for lunch. Then back home ! Nothing special.

Wondering how could peoples stay and hold their relationship until engage, married, and live together forever and ever ?

I'm the failure. I cant hold my relationship for long. Am I too wild ?

04.09.10

2010-09-10T14:48:00.000-07:00

Went to OneBorneo for JJ concert. Actually not planning to go when first I saw the news of JJ come Sabah. But before the day, my friend gave me a ticket. Got ticket ? So go then. =)

With brother, bor's girlF & Hoho went there earlier. 6pm like that then reach already. Ate our dinner at "APPLE CAFE". Somewhere like food court. But not mixed stall those. Quite delicious. Average price.

After that, met with Aaron, Sern, Yoyo, Sylvester, Kimberly & Nicole. Sern played archery. RM9. I forgot how many arrow already. But Sern just finish it almost in 10-15mins.

JJ concert start at 8pm. We decided go queue up at there 1st if not scare too many people. That time just 6pm++. Found the place and when we queue up, there already many people. Get in to there when 7pm. Stand inside and started to wait.

Wait wait wait wait wait.

Take photo, talk, chit-chat, this and that.

I kept note on my watch. Very happy when almost 8pm. Started tired, started very very hot. and started more and more people. Suddenly, Hoho bring Rebecca come to our place there. Surprise to see her ! She told us that she do part time for "SUPER". Sponsor of JJ concert. Chit chat a while with her, then she tell us JJ gonna reach at straight 9pm. My mind cross "WTF" at that moment. 8pm start, waited from 7pm, JJ gonna reach at 9pm ??? Aaron tell Sern that he don really have the mood to see already.

Again again I see my watch. That one hour really so so long. I almost fainted. Because infront of me, got a gang of girls kept stepping back. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Wait wait wait wait wait wait again.

The host maybe knew we waited so long too. He kept talk to us. Something about JJ. Talk, stopped, Talk, stopped.

Finally ! 8.50pm something. Host came out and bla bla bla. WILL NG is the concert's special guest. Sang two song. I love his "爱与不爱" and I love his shoes of that day so much ! Yeng^^

After Will Ng, JJ came out !!!!! Finally finally finally. Love his sound so so so so much. Very nice ! I fallen in love with him in one night. His cute, kind and really love music. Sang just a few song. 加油，一个又一个，背对背拥抱. Just 3. Not really enough for my ears. =p LIVE is just too awesome ! Dunno how to say the feel. It's very warm in my heart.

Sylvester catches the poster ~ Lucky^^

Aaron & Sern bought JJ album in the concert. RM45. But they dint wait for JJ to sign on the album. Got a bit waste~

Feel very fun to go concert with all my friends ! After the concert, I cant even stand straight. Pain, tired ! But have fun ! Love the feel, love the whole concert. I'll always remember this.

Went to Lintas after concert. Yum cha + Paul got singing competition in New Jade Pub. He sang 萧敬腾'新不了情. High key ~ I never know he can sing so well. Success get into Semi too. Congrats ! =)

Reach home at 12pm++. Home sweet home =)

A Day

2010-09-03T23:35:00.000-07:00

In one day, I realize "Single and taken have a big difference" for twice. Starting to feel tired again. Heart tired. I guess I gonna take a time and think for something. What I gonna do, what I need to do.

I watched PIRANHA just now ! Awesome movie ! Bloody but heart beat fast movie. Haha. Really nice ! Something like shark movie. Unexpected ending too. Ohh~ I think 3D more more nice. They say they will be going to watch 3D when it release. I don think I'll follow. Tooooo dreadful. Ewwww. BUT ! Don miss it, must watch !

:D

2010-08-25T05:40:00.000-07:00

Hey there ! Spending time in Starbucks now with sister and her friends. I'm bored. So came here to write something again^^

My sister came back from KL ! But she only stay for two weeks. Short time =( I'm happy + sad. It's weird. Just because she came, everyday have a people accompany me to do this and that. and I never sleep alone, walk alone. Then, after two weeks, I have to learn to be alone again. Everything like start over. Maybe not that serious, but I really have a fear in heart. =(

Because of my sister came back, I become more more lazy. cause she help me on everything. Hehehe. and she always cook. Yum yum one ~ We all like it. She love me so much, and I love her too. Heee. She always ask me why don't kiss her or tell her I love her? I feel shy. Although very close with her. *blush*

My cousins were so so cute ! Abigail~ Just two years old and she very talkative. She speak Japanese. Haha. Actually not. But she always talk her own language. and we all listen to it, just feel like japanese. I spend half day with her today. Felt really tired to take care of child. Cause she wont tired and play non-stop. You need to give her respond if not she will like feel upset. She have a brother. Mathias~ Cute also ! Always smile smile one. He wont scare of anyone. He just let anyone to hug him~ Bring him to here and there. Not really love to cry. My brother and sister love them too ~ =D

My 9th auntie back from America. Brought back sooooo many present. Lots of chocolate, raisins, food and more. She bought handbags and purse for my sis. A watch for me. I love it ! White one. Really nice =) She bought so so many books, games and dresses to abigail and mathias also~ I like this gugu much. Kind one =)

Dad, mum and bro. Still the same. I guess nothing special. Ohhh ! My dad seriously cough. Pity =( Pray for him~

Yesterday just heard of a news. Happens in Manila, Philippine. Hong Kong tourists killed in Philippine bus hijacking. Really felt sad when I heard that and saw the news on tv. They just go for travel and suddenly happens this tragedy. Life was priceless. Everything could happen in a moment. RIP hong kong peoples~

My love, stable mode. Sometimes will fight for little things, but sometimes could love until want die. Hahahaha.

Home internet dunno why rosak already~ Luckily this world got wi-fi. Whee haha.

Will be back again ! I'm out of topic. Heeee. Wish everyone have a great day :)

Ohh ! I recently love to use >>>>>>>>>>> :) / :p / :(
Not " = " anymore. But change to " : " Hehe. See ya !

我们的爱 ?

2010-08-11T21:12:00.000-07:00

我们的生活中，充满了你的我的. 可是爱是一种我们的.

Today ♥

2010-08-07T23:28:00.000-07:00

Today ! Celebration for Ka hou =) I was late to meet them because went to hospital with mum. Something like medical check up. All for free. =D Saw Sandra at there too =)

We watched "SALT" for today. Nice movie ! Not like what I think of. I taught it was just random nice. Love it. Really ! Angelina Jolie was sexyyy ! Love her lips :p

After movie, went to Secret Recipe. We did bought cake for Ka hou. Look at the photo up there. Nice nice ? Chocolate mud cake =) Spend a little time in there. Then all separate to group. This go there. That go here. =)

I keep finding place to charge my phone that time. My phone and camera out of battery at a same time. Felt "Da*n it" at that moment. I did bring my phone charger out. Then, my boy accompany me to McDonald to charge my phone. At corner there got the plug. Ehehehehehe. Actually It's for laptop I know. I very scare the McD staff will come and tell me thats for laptop not for phone. Felt shy shy when I use it. Cause made people that have laptop couldn't charge their laptop. Sorry~~

Talked with my boy when sitting at there. Of course we do buy something laa kann. If not I wont so thick face sit there for a long time. Talked much thing. He tell me about something bout his feel, too. I think we should have more time like this. To understand each other more.

After sat there for almost like 45mins like that, tanTan them come to find us. Chit chat a while, tyson ask we go Suria. Help him buy movie ticket. We at center point that time. and we gonna walk to Suria. Haha. FAR ! But, that time we all felt bored. So all agree that. Just a short time, we reached there. Maybe walk together with friend. So I did not feel far.

While we waiting Tyson come Suria to fetch us. Me and my boy went to "TIMES" book store. =) We played "find the difference" in it. Fun ! =D Tyson came and then we go for dinner. Steamboat. =) It's my first time that let tyson fetch. Long time dint see him and talk to him already. =) We ate steamboat at "Taman Dickson". Very many people place. Akeem and monkey did join us for dinner. =) Ate so so so many. Ate Tom yam too. and I vomit twice after went home. =( Feel not well. Dunno why ?

A nice nice day. Many 小插曲 between this. =)
Wednesday is Ka hou real birthday ! =D

I'm gonna go sleep now. Not well not well not well !

=(

2010-08-02T22:20:00.000-07:00

心里的无奈都希望能够对你说明白.

一年了，你还好吗？

2010-08-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

31.07.10

忽然想起你了。原谅我没有去看你。爸妈都不允许。上次有经过墓园，想起了去年的今天。心还是会有去年那一刻的感觉。我好久没去 HAC 了。就某种原因。抱歉。不知不觉，一年了。你还好吗？

Tank - 会长大的幸福

2010-07-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

在夜市里逛地摊送你一副耳环
你很喜欢一整晚笑声不断
陪你看电影哭完戏里相爱好难
迷昏感慨现实会害人离散

你说浪漫和贫富无关
是心让爱灿烂
在捷运车站不在乎围观
感动亲吻起来

要你拥有会长大的幸福
一天比一天像公主梦都被满足
为你种下会长大的幸福
让今天担心你的朋友明天笑闹着嫉妒

要你有幸福一天一天比一天像公主
梦都被满足
为你种下幸福让今天担心你的那些好朋友
笑闹着嫉妒

为你生日的夜晚亲手料理晚餐
你真可爱很捧场吃两碗饭
你电话有点摔坏一直想帮你换
努力加班你心疼得泪打转

你说浪漫和贫富无关
是心让爱灿烂
在捷运车站不在乎围观
感动亲吻起来

要你拥有会长大的幸福
一天比一天像公主梦都被满足
为你种下会长大的幸福
让今天担心你的朋友明天笑闹着嫉妒

爱是送你会长大的幸福
用生命为你变魔术永远被保护
牵手围住会长大的幸福
任它开花结果变大树
我们唱着歌欢呼
爱是送你幸福
每天每天每天为你变魔术
永远被保护

Rebecca !

2010-07-29T09:40:00.000-07:00

24.07.10. Celebration for Rebecca. We went to Sing K at K Box. and watch movie. Only these. Simple day but happy =) We watched Inception. Quite nice. But really blur. Because we dunno it's in dream or in reality ? Until the end, still dunno is dream or reality. ==" I tried to search for the whole story and answer. Those people also keep guessing. "Gonna bring your brain go when you watch". Myfm said this. Haha. Nothing special bout sing K. Just sing sing sing. and them so high. Haha. Wish her dreams come true. and 18 every year !

Some photos here. =)

Oh yaa ! This the present that we girls buy for her. Special ler^^

My cute daddy =D

2010-07-28T18:14:00.000-07:00

Tiger bite ! Haha. Cute ? =)

我的 love.

2010-07-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

A little surprise from him ! 前几天，他一直和香芸在讨论事情。起初没有发觉，后来才知道好像有秘密。但是他们两个都封口不说。任我怎么扮伤心，撒娇，套话都没用。哈哈。今天，他叫我闭上眼睛。我其实心里有个答案，因为偷听他们说话，所以有一点点头绪。闭上眼睛的时候，心里还是很紧张。不知道会是怎么样的惊喜，心里有份期待。

在他准备那短短一分钟内，忽然有个路人甲走进来说:"Waa~ 有 cup cake，没有分我的？" 爆笑!我想象不到他那时候的惊讶表情。哈哈哈。睁开眼后，看到桌子上放着这七个小蛋糕。感动!!!! 真的有感动到!

跟他在一起后，一直有不断大大小小的惊喜。一些礼物，一些让我开心的事。喜欢这样为我的他。但后来有点难过。难过我不能也这样让他感动。想要做点事情。虽然他不求回报。

今天是他在学校有羽毛球比赛。比三场。一个单打，Mix double & 双打。前面两场比输了。他和他的队友就没打了。因为就算赢了，也是 2-1。看得出他伤心的表情。那一刻，觉得自己嘴角也有往下的感觉。我在乎他的感受。觉得别人每次说的：”她开心我也开心“不是傻话。明白也了解了。

今天依然满满的爱 ♥

A little update of life =)

2010-07-23T22:34:00.000-07:00

Forgot which day, went to watch "Despicable me". Because parents watch "Mantra". Ghost movie. So I watch 3D movie, alone. I think I'm alone to done many things in this year. Alone to watch concert, alone to run 7K, alone to watch movie. But I sure will met someone accidently and will accompany me. Lucky ? =)

Rated 4 of 5 stars. Nice !! Cute, Funny, and will touch your heart. Love the cute little girl call "Agnes" in this movie. Toooooooooo cute !

Forgot which day again. Last sunday if I wasn't wrong. Went to Seminar Skor A. For SPM. There were something like Soalan ramalan for SPM. Went with Ivy, Faye, Ka hou, Aaron. Met Randy and Brigette them. Many students from our school went there too. =) Quite nice and useful. But really sleepy when Maths. Not my subject. Wheeeeee.
and BM. We all keep >>>> " == " Haha. Just because the teacher talk very fast and those words were like sticked together. We dunno what are he saying. Gonna listen to what he say and write notes lagi. Hard things of the day~~~

A simple photo of we =)

我喜欢

2010-07-22T17:30:00.000-07:00

上次在Su Yi的部落格看到这个link.

http://gigikissu.blogspot.com/?zx=270a05bf8e182515 （抱歉我的blog不能right click）

点进去看看，看到了令人心痛的事情。一个意外，就这样带走了她深爱的人。在我脑海里出现的，是他。“珍惜”这个字眼，不断地在我脑海里重复着。但我想象到的，是我的朋友。他们过着和他们差不多的Lifestyle。就是常常会在一起的那种。谁都不知道下一秒会发生什么事，所以，请时刻珍惜。

觉得自己每次五时花，六时变。哈哈。有时候会很爱他，心里有满满的爱。有时候又会觉得我们不适合，想的东西都不一样，意见不一致。当然，现在是处于满满的爱。而且维持了很久，所以，很好。=D

今天在班上，感觉他都累累的，因为一直睡。喜欢看他睡的脸。我会觉得很窝心，很舒服。今天他在睡的时候，握着我的手。虽然不是很久，但却让我整个心一直都是微笑状态。Brighten up my day !

想起他像个小孩般向我认错，还会撒娇，有时还会跟我吵。喜欢看他脸红，感觉他心里就是无邪。哈哈。虽然不是。=p

有时就是怪怪的感觉，不过，我喜欢. 喜欢像个小孩的他。 =)

家人

2010-07-22T17:10:00.000-07:00

忘了是哪一天，我站在路旁。爸爸在我前面走着。看着他的背影，有一种莫名的感动。眼泪盈眶。最近和爸爸一起看着一个电视剧。情越双白线。讲述亲情无价爱情两难。剧里的一对父子，非常像我哥哥和爸爸。一样的不合，其实都很关心对方。上次看见爸爸眼角有泪。之后我跟着看，才发现这剧真的非常感人。

有时候可以连续好多天都没有见到哥哥。我回家的时候，他常常都已经出去了。以前还会说说他。现在想说，都没机会说。上次我补习，他载我回家。在车上，听着他们说车的东西。一些我觉得危险的东西。我忽然对神说，：“神啊~如果有一天，你要惩罚哥哥，要让他遇上一起严重的车祸，给他教训，请你把我也放在车里。” 想要陪伴哥哥，就算是他不领情。想让他感觉到我们的爱，想让他知道，有家人，多么好。每次坐在哥哥的车里，都会莫名的感伤。就是不知道为什么。

我爱我的家人。他们就像是我生命的根。非常非常爱他们。不是用一字一语就能叙述的爱。=)

Happy birthday !

2010-07-16T15:04:00.000-07:00

My dear YoYo's birthday ! It's today ! A very happy birthday to her. =) Hope her wish will come true. Nothing more to say about. Kept it in heart. Friends forever. =)

My ♥

2010-07-15T22:45:00.000-07:00

Two days ago. Talked with Jac. Talk our boyfriend. Just realized that I should hear more advise from different people. Feel fun to hear about her boyfriend. Almost look like him, 80% same. Saw many different type of man, but all same attitude to their girlfriend. Jac very patient with her's. Then I knew, I should do it too. Why should I very angry on a little thing that every man does ? Peoples can stand it, why cant I ? Feel ashamed for it.

Jac asked me what I like about him ? That time, in my mind, just show out his face. The smile face. I dint answer her. But she said out: "I know you like his smile very much laa" Yes my dear. I like it so so so much. But now his smile not that natural more, cause he always do fake smile to me. ><"

Something will changed when two people be together. It not because we change, It's because we getting know each other more and more.　Don wanna complain this and that again. Now want learn to tolerate with it. Learn to love it. Learn to know "why" and accept it. =)

I wish we both have the same mind. A complete love needs both of us to make it.

Love you more and more my darling. =)

♥

2010-07-13T17:33:00.000-07:00

aww~ I changed my blog skin. Any comment ? =)

It's about today =)

2010-07-10T23:53:00.000-07:00

Today ~ Woke up early morning. Really early. 7am like that. Give me a clap clap please. Haha. I dunno why. Naturally wake. Kept think think think about the time. Because of the 7K and concert. Rush. =(

I joined 7K. With my parents. Wheeeeeeeee. Feel very proud when took the checkpoint one's card. Haha. I never join like this kind of activity. Used most of my time and energy. But this time, I just feel wanna join. Although I know will very rush. =) When running to checkpoint two. In my mind, just one word. Exhausted. I dint finish the 7K. Because I'm late for the concert. Cute mummy bring whole BIG pack empty bottle for recycle. Me and dad was like " astaga~ " Haha. Really big pack. Big big. =p

Then rush rush rush. 7.30++pm reached school. For concert. =) Everyone were at there already. Ka hou with very nice outfit. Yeng =) It's 1st time that Yoyo be audience with us. Feel very heart pain for her. She in sick. Seriously. Hope she will fast fast fast fast recover. Pray for her. =) Nothing special more bout the concert. High heels + 7K. Now my leg was like not mine. xp

Last two days, argue with him. I think that's even not argue. Dunno how to explain. Just feel very angry. Nothing more. It's just pain.

Tired tired. Going to sleep. =) Nights all !

Hey guys

2010-07-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey. I seem be missing for a long long time. I'm fine. Really does not have extra time to updated blog. Many and much thing that I want to share. But I just did not have enough time to. SPM coming. Time running and running. Changed all the mind. I started to give myself a little bit pressure. Because I'll do better with it. No target ? No dream ? No hope ? NO WAY ! I wont let it happen. I'll sure to find myself a target. Get it and be success. I told myself for hundred million times. Go and take your book. Read it ! At last, sure I dint. Haha. I'll make it I'll make it. Arghhhhhhhh. Not only by mouth, but with action =) I watching a drama this few weeks. Summer's desire. Tawain's. One episode for a week. I have enough time to. Doesn't really bother me for study, entertainment, or sleep. =D I getting spent much time with parents. Love to be with them. =) Here is my latest photo. Mushroom. xD

2010-05-20T16:20:00.000-07:00

考试！想到就心烦。只想写些东西，舒缓一下。

今年考试比较积极。真的。换作以前，叫我背文章，好过去睡觉。这次，是真的想要考好。

我不是那种考试到，就狂念书，做练习的人。我喜欢轻松地走。太努力，得不到什么，会把我整个人重重的丢下楼。试过，所以不敢了。

今天考英文，最喜欢的英文。作文却写得一塌糊涂。明天考数学。哈哈。仇敌。从中一（其中一个考试），拿过90多的高分，一直到现在，除了PMR，剩下的考试/测验一律不及格。不骗你。所以我讨厌数学。也非常讨厌人家告诉我“很简单的~”

对我来说，不及格，就算了。反正都是这样的。

但是！！！有分好过零分嘛~对不？ =p =p

Hello Kitty !

2010-05-15T20:14:00.000-07:00

Accidently saw a video of hello kitty in someone's blog. Then found out website of Hello Kitty and many photos. Would like to share at here. Because it's toooooooooooooooooooooo cute ! ♥

Added two website URL in blog here. Check it out =D

*Nogaremono Orin Hello Kitty ♥*

*Nogaremono Orin Hello Kitty ♥*

*Hello Kitty Crocs ♥*

* Hello Kitty T-Shirt ♥*

*Kimora Lee Simmons for Hello Kitty ♥*

*Hello Kitty Pink Hotel HsinChu, Taiwan ♥*

*Hello Kitty Hotel Living Room ♥*

*Hello Kitty Hotel Bedroom ♥*

* HELLO KITTY ♥*

*Hello Kitty Halloween in Store ♥*

*Hello Kitty Bowling Ball ♥*

*Hello Kitty Bowling Ball ♥*

*Hello Kitty Zales Jewelery ♥*

*Hello Kitty Watches ♥*

*Hello Kitty Trunk Show 2009 Watches ♥*

*Hello Kitty Trunk Show 2009 Ring ♥*

*Hello Kitty Trunk Show 2009 Pendant ♥*

*Hello Kitty MAC powder ♥*

*Hello Kitty MAC lip gloss ♥*

*Hello Kitty Cupcakes ♥*

*Hello Kitty Cupcakes ♥*

*Hello Kitty Compact ♥*

*Hello Kitty by Victoria Couture ♥*

*Hello Kitty Guitar Picks ♥*

*Hello Kitty Guitar ♥*

*Hello Kitty Cotton Doll ♥*

*Hello Kitty Clutch Bag ♥*

*Hello Kitty Jewel Doll ♥*

2010-05-08T09:10:00.000-07:00

Today ! My dearest Miss.Xiang yun birthday. Happy birthday !! 6 years friend. We did happy together, cry together. Ever argue, fight. But we still best best now. Thank you for every moment. This year wont be the last year. Friend forever. I do really trust friend will forever^^ I love you much much much much. Muacks !

2010-05-06T11:50:00.000-07:00

近况！分享. 星期一的时候，一切都很美好。但是到了晚上，为了一颗苹果。爸爸很生气的骂了我和哥哥。发了很大的脾气。他大声到隔壁两座楼都听到吧？还想呼我们巴掌。哥哥哭到喘，呼吸困难。我拼命的呼救神，但好像无补于事。那一幕幕，很深刻的印在我的心里，脑海里。爸爸还有哥哥说的话，重复想了又想。到底是为什么？才发现有些事情，不是你想做，就能做的。力不从心~~ =(

后来他有和我通电话。是担心吗？还是发现我的眼泪停不下来？虽然心情平复许多，但第二天，心还是很痛。画面一度出现，眼眶一直泛泪。谁也看不出来，就只有Ivy.那天，她不断地告诉我“不要做苦姑婆，要笑。”心里暖暖的。也一直想起她摸摸我的头，抱抱我的时候。超温暖。Ivy ! 如果有一天，没有人要我了。我们当男女朋友吧。Heeeeeeee.真的。你不是说过不奇怪吗？^^

昨天，发生了一点点的小插曲。听到了一些些让我心痛的话。害我觉得时间真的很不够用。我要读书，要和家人相处，要谈恋爱，要把朋友的关系搞好，又要想一些琐碎的事。唉~可能过渡期又来了。最近很爱>>>>>>>>>>> " =( "

你不能说我没有爱过，说我没等过难过

2010-05-04T18:59:00.000-07:00

01.05.2010。劳动节。为了庆祝香芸的生日，我们一群人一起去看叶问2。好好好好好好看啊！真的是一代宗师。害我也想学咏春了。真的~ 哈哈。看完之后很感动。片中英国的拳王取笑中国人以烧香来比武计时的方法，叶问说中国人烧香不是只为了计时，而是代表着一种谦逊。
中国人的那种捍卫民族自尊心，坚强不屈，爱国主义的精神，真的很感动。
中国武术并不是拳脚之争，它保养了一种精神和修养。好看！Rate : ***** ^^

看完戏之后，一出来就看到Kevin.看到他就知道没好事发生。我们大家去了新旺。在那里切蛋糕，聊聊天。聊到一半，他突然说要出去。没告诉我要去哪里，就说出去一下。虽然觉得奇怪，但是我没有多问~然后我们其他人就继续聊。谁知道~~~~~~~~我突然觉得好像不对劲。看看那对情侣。又有事情发生了~某些状况。害两个女生都哭了。我心里也很着急。那时候他又不在。后来，我不知道我怎么做到的。我劝大家说算了。也让大家不要哭了。自己真的没有掉泪。那时候很想善牵在。嘻嘻。因为她是我们当中，最勇敢的。之后就没事了~一段小插曲。唱唱生日歌，切切蛋糕，大家就分开走了。哦！对了~我没说他怎么出去了~他竟然是去买项链送我。真的吓倒了一下下。而且他还特意选了我最喜欢的hello kitty~ 谢谢！！！带上项链的时候，整个心都暖暖的。=D

之后已经说好在Cyber见的了。去到那边，他们说去吃晚餐。走了好远的路，本来要去“枫”用晚餐的，但是满座，就换去UPPERSTAR。路途遥远~ =( 去到的时候，整个人都松下来了。我们分开两个桌子坐。后来雯宜他们也一起来了~有听老板还有Wilson他们在讲好笑的Video.全部爆笑。xD

在餐厅里~昏暗.

对了~~我最近都一直叫Clinton老板。哈哈。喜欢这样叫他。不知道~就喜欢。他说如果我叫他老板，他就叫我打工的。如果我叫他的名字，他就叫我的名字。><"

老板笑到很像小孩.哈哈.

后来他们全部去YOYO。剩下我和他陪雯宜&俊胜吃晚餐。在那里呆很久一下，因为雯宜吃东西很慢~~xp 待她吃完后，我们四个人就去到Cyber去了。网咖~~玩了一下下的电脑，然后车就来了。是他的哥哥。上车的时候，心跳真的很快。因为是第一次看到他哥哥。我也一直告诉他说我很怕。不知道为什么。@.@ 一路上都只看到他哥哥的左边脸。真的好像他。可能看过照片的关系，一直都觉得很像~之后觉得更像了。因为他哥哥有一点左右不分。哈哈^^ 很可爱~

回到家之后，觉得那天的一切，都挺美好的。=)

我在乎我们的关系。我会常常向神祷告。希望说我们的感情会更坚固。我想我们要到很久好久。我会更努力的~ Dear, 当你牵着我的手，我发现自己真的.................恋爱了 ♥

近况~~~~

2010-05-03T17:25:00.000-07:00

Arlohaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ! 哈哈. 我又不见踪影了。搬家了。蛮累的。最近算是轻松下来了。=)

来说说近况？住KK的朋友们~ 知道 KDCA 吗？大概都知道吧？不久前，纸花树不是开了吗？报纸也有登。每天回家都会经过那条路，很喜欢看着它们。真的很像樱花~临凋谢之前，我拍了张照^^

不是很清楚。因为是在车上拍的。

搬家的时候，有开派对。好多人来。我的朋友们也有来。那天很忙，超忙。上上下下的。我的家在四楼。==" 很感谢朋友们。都一直帮忙。忙到后面已经生气了。因为有不懂事的人。还好他在。不然我战斗力指数可能会爆表。那天晚上突然觉得：有你在身边，真好.

我可爱的小房间。错错错。是我和姐姐可爱的小房间。哈哈。

有傻眼吗？两个人睡一间房？是的。这间屋子，是卖给哥哥娶老婆用的。所以他的房间是第二大。主人房，当然是爸妈的。那小房，自然就是我和姐姐的。哈哈。其实一点都不委屈。因为姐姐常常都抢着要很我睡同一张床。@.@

忘了是哪天。我把前面的浏海夹上去，就这样出门了。那是我第一次这么做。因为我额头很高，然后又蓬蓬的，很像罗汉鱼，所以一直都不敢夹上去出去见人。哈哈。额头前面空空的，感觉还不错。=D

我们那一群~轮一圈生病了。嘉豪过后是ah tan，接着 Jeff, Ivy, Fung，然后到 Yoyo，最后到我。我已经很努力喝水休息了。还是中招。不想要生病。虽然生病你就是公主，但是，好辛苦！
没有看医生，照常上课。发烧也是。为什么？某某原因。=p 那次他生病，连续好几天都没去学校。第一天带凉茶，第二天，第三天也带。但他病太重了。所以都没来。说不失望是骗你的啦。不过，后来都觉得没什么了。姐姐都觉得奇怪。以前我一点点伤风感冒就吵着要留在家的。哈哈。因为有目标，所有做事情更有毅力了。这应该是我的第一次。
生病的时候，他泡了蜜糖给我，也买了喉糖。超感谢。满满的爱心~

依然是忘了哪天。他突然和我说，要改面子书's relationship status. 我答应了。然后一大堆人就这样知道了。连我的姨姨，他的补习老师都知道。==" Facebook真是广泛~~

Hearts

2010-04-16T17:48:00.001-07:00

Tired Tired. Very tired. But need update 1st before my streamyx line lost. Hee. Streamyx gonna move house too. Need a week. So long~~~ I'll miss FaceBook very much. Hehe. Today SPBT took all those book who students left in class. Me and yoyo got help. Cant choose. Must help. ==" So tired. Carrying the book here and there. So many~ I think when monday all those student will feel angry and sad. Those book need buy back 1. Ivy, Jeff & Fung sick le. All fever. H1N1? No laa. Maybe infect each other? =) Heart so pain when see him feel very not well. Today still joining competition. Badminton's. Sick lerrrrrr. When i see him play, I almost cry out. Argh. Feel very sam tong. I dint tell him to jia you. Cause i scare he will feel stress. I love the time stay with him. But i always feel unsafe. Dunno why. I'm the 1 who just like weather. Unpredictable. and change without any warn.
Saw this at Facebook >>>>>>>>
Love can be also like a box of chocolate.
-Cause girl's heart can be melted very easily.
Love can be like KIT KAT
-Cos it BREAKS easily.
Love can be like ur family and you.
-Cause your family loves you UNCONDITIONALLY
TRUE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to bath. Later still got tuition. =(

In my heart, you're always the winner. ♥

2010-04-13T23:08:00.000-07:00

今天上了一整天的讲座.整天都好困.一直想倒下去睡.这位讲师,他们说是读心理学的.说了一大堆的人生道理.虽然有些还蛮正确的.可能因为我一直存在钓鱼状态,所以不是很用心听他说.它不断得提醒我们要坐直.这招说真的还挺有用的.坐直后比较精神.上讲座会前,他们一直说那个讲师会跟我们说一些打进心里的话,我们会哭.因为听他们这样说了,不是很能想象到我哭.所以和香芸打赌.说如果我不哭,它就请我吃日本餐.哈哈.为了日本餐,我可是咬紧牙关说不能哭的.讲师让我们闭上眼睛,幻想着未来.他说的每字每句真的打进我心里了.好多人都哭了.眼睛是闭着的.不过痛哭的声音还是能听得清清楚楚.坐在我两旁的他和Ivy也哭了.我哭的时候,一直听到他们的声音.哈.讲师和我们说的重点,其实是努力读书.不要让辛苦大半辈子的爸妈,继续为我们奔波.这点我高举双手赞成.起来过后,看到每个人的眼睛都红红的.让我意想不到的他们,也全都哭了.大家都是心疼父母吧？之后我第一句话和Ivy说的就是:"我的日本餐！！" 哈哈.虽然说这讲座好像挺感动我们的.但是讲座过后,哭完之后,又有几个会真的想改变.今天我发现.原来细心观察也是爱的一部分.

2010-04-12T17:10:00.000-07:00

美图秀秀的魔力.虽然还是很假啦~xp

DREAM.店名很梦幻 =)

全场我觉得最美的婚纱 =)

Seo bang =D

我们送的花~好贵的啊 ~.~

2010-04-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

又失踪好几天了.对不起.嘻嘻. 他终于告白了.虽然我是想到会有这么一天，不过没有想到会那么快.他用了很浪漫感动的招数.哈哈.不过我却没有立刻答应他.而是跟他立了三天的约定.我不想因为感动，而冲动.一直在我自己和他的空间里面遐想.忘记了原来这并不只是我们俩的事情.那天心痛得不得了.整天都恍恍惚惚.不知道该怎么办.他们告诉我:再不快点,他就会不见了.不想伤害，更不想放弃.进退两难.其实心里早有答案.只是在等待第三天的"可不可以".对了.说说今天吧.诗敏哥哥的婚纱店新开张.我们几个朋友去捧场了.在那里帮忙做了摄影师.嘻嘻.婚纱都好美一下的.=D 我和yoyo,sern和他,好像早就说好一样.我和yoyo穿蓝色,他和sern就穿白色.哈哈.很巧～之后和Sern,Yoyo,他去看电影.美丽密令.好好笑的一部戏～在我旁边的他的笑声，让我微笑.好可爱啊^^很喜欢今天的一切 =) 9.22pm. 听到了房间里的呕吐声.爸爸今天在一场会议上胜利了.酒喝多了.还要我和妈妈收拾.唉.小孩一个.近期的照片明天会上传 =D

2010-03-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

对了。忘了说。终于下雨了。炎热的天气让大家都受不了。星期一那天下了大雨。放学的时候，大塞人。因为中间那里有个小水灾。塞在楼下那里大概有二三十分钟吧。有很多笨蛋都在犹豫到底要怎么过去。==" 弄得后面的人一直大喊，又一直推上前。最后还是成功过去了~我和雯宜都脱鞋过。第二天还要上课呢~~虽然踩着的水很脏，不过踩在水上的感觉，很好。而且很喜欢下雨的时候。=D 今天没有去到学校。中途肚子超级痛，就回家了。爸爸说可能吃错东西。他又没空带我去看医生。=( 睡了一下下。爸爸说带我出去。送巧克力，送去学校给他们。爸爸好好哦^^ 后来他带我去吃东西，在那里竟然遇到我们学校的家教协会主席。就在我们前面。最重要的是，他还认得我. @.@ 我拼命的看着电话，怕他看过来，跟我对上眼就惨了。那时候很好笑，我还叫我爸爸讲话小声一点。xp 不过后来爸爸有走去跟他聊天啦~~回到家的时候，伤风了。一直打喷嚏，流鼻水。都头痛了。哎哎。生病了~后来看看电视，爸爸就叫我去睡觉。就一直睡到五点多才醒~嘻嘻嘻。头没那么痛了。不过还是伤风~~刚刚又下雨了。凉凉的感觉真好。自然的冷气^^

乱

2010-03-30T17:09:00.000-07:00

前几天家里出了些问题.哭了两天两夜吧？睡前哭，睡醒哭，洗澡哭，就连静静坐着也会哭。星期日那天晚上，就像平常一样和他发信息。睡前那封信息，突然出现了未曾出现过的3个数字。我电话的数字呢，是会变蓝色的。我重复又重复的看了那信息。不是我看错呢~又为这个哭了。不知道是开心，还是吓倒了。我知道我傻啦~~ =( 昨天上学的时候，本来以为没什么了。下课后，和Ivy说一说家里的事，又哭了。好累。哭得累了。整天上课都闷闷不乐的。晚上又是发信息。今天不是数字了。开心，也很心痛。我想那只是说说的吧。因为怕是绝望，所以不敢希望。今天Tan跟我说，他和Ppey一样的。有人对他好，他就也对那人好。我想想也是。他就像个小孩。傻得很可爱。后来雯宜有问我，你有告诉他啊？其实我都不确定，怎么讲啊~~Haih. 好乱好乱~星期四是愚人节呢~应该会有有趣的事情发生吧？=)

想起你说：有你在，怕什么，至少还有你会陪着我

2010-03-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

Please tell me IT'S OKAY. I'm very not okay. =(

2010-03-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

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2010-03-26T22:40:00.000-07:00

Twice suprise ! Shout when saw that. Haha. Suprise made my day. =D Yesterday watched ice age 4. He say just we watched it. Newest movie. xp Today feel very relax when talk with them after school. X yun in a relationship with Tan ah tan. Haha. Ji mui was just tease this and that. I memorise last time when yoyo together with sern, we played like that too. Keep remind ah tan don copy sern. 20% only can. Haha. Sern very fierce to GirlF. Hng. X yun ! Heng bo ka sei yo ! 꼭 행복하세요! =p Tomoro ! Saturday. Out with parents. Yeah yeah yeah^^ Dad told me its earth hour. He say must support. Uinahhhhhh. =D

2010-03-24T22:17:00.000-07:00

I just wanna smile like this =)

2010-03-24T21:43:00.000-07:00

Today not a good day. Because i just keep wanna cry. Haih. I'm sorry to be emo. I'm not really wish to. Just tired with everything. Again.

我反复提醒着自己 “没有结果的事，不要去做。” 虽然心会有点痛.....不过，只有这样，一切才不会被我打乱。 =(

Touched

2010-03-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

Just finish the holiday. and back to school time. Happy + Sad. Happy just because can play half day with friend again. But Sad is i'm gonna face the long long night again. Feel so hard again. I talked with fungfung. Through message in FB. But i think we never have conclusion. Just no reason. Maybe we think with defferent way. So that we cant balance. I just want to be fine. I dunno what i could say anymore.
Hmmm. Oh yaa ! Sunday Jeff be story teller. and me too. He told me cinderella's fairytale. =D and i did tell him Snow white's. Whee. and long long time ago msn remind me something. JahJah remember tooo. A part of memories. =D Today ate pizza in tuition. It's 1st time. Haha. With all of them. I guess i like account more. It's not hard when you understand it. Just now so touched because of this (the photo below). He kept it. =p

梦

2010-03-21T18:45:00.000-07:00

Had a nightmare. Consider as adventure dream too. 吓到起床。心跳好快好快。梦到我，Jeff,香芸 & Faye. Jeff 驾着车，载着我们三个女的。他不知道要上什么课。很赶。匆匆忙忙帮他把电脑放进他的电脑书包。打开的时候，里面有个ToolBox. No idea of why the toolbox was in a bag ==" 然后他就很快地走了。留下我们三个。香芸就驾他的车带我们回。但是香芸又不会驾。不知道为什么，我们在斜坡上，车就自动的滑下去。一直滑一直滑。香芸就踩油，成功去到另外一条路。以为安全了。谁知道...........这条路也是斜坡。后面还是大海。 xD 车又开始滑了。这次我跟Faye就一直大喊~ 先是叫香芸踩Break。她踩了，不过好像没用。我就叫她拉hand break.她又好像傻傻不知道hand break在那里。xp 之后Faye帮她拉了。又好像没有效~我跟Faye就一直喊着说踩油！踩油！香芸就一直看着我们，然后一直问要做什么。 @.@ 我又帮她拉起hand break再喊踩油。不知道是不是hand break 还是 break 有效了，也不知道为什么，车子掉到一半就停了。香芸和Faye成功下车。剩下我在后座。之后Jeff好像跑过来了。然后我就醒了。xD 很多为什么。哈哈。心跳快的原因？一直喊香芸那一段~很恐怖啊~在滑了，香芸还傻傻。哈哈。乱！

2010-03-20T02:08:00.000-07:00

Miss FAYE so so much. I'm wondering if she still here together with me, would i feel this alone ?Recently watched sad sad movie. Most like Wedding Dress. Korean movie. It's about a mother and daughter. Very touchful ! I keep cry and cry. and today. I hate myself was being a stupid person. I'm always like to hide something in heart. Just because don want anybody hurts. Sigh. Love big big world this song recently. Before sleep i hear once, after wake up, i hear once again. and Hush Hush. It describe my feeling. Hush. Kept active in msn. Because can find people chat with me. One of the everyday list is Nest. It's my new friend! Just because his name was too hard to spell and speak, so i call him nest. =) Oh ya ! I argue with fungfung AGAIN. This time is he suddenly scold me and X yun. I really dunno how can we be fine for a long long time. I don want always be like this. Tears again calling me. =(

Pissed off

2010-03-18T21:50:00.000-07:00

I starting to realize that everyone seem saying i like Jeff. I don want to explain. Explain make thing worst. But about this post. I'm just again telling my feeling. I don want mr.F angry on jeff. and i don want Jeff feel like don want near with me anymore. Because this happened on tan. When the time i know, thing already change. Everyone know tan very scare to near with me. Jeff you changing too ? Sometimes feel very hard. Just want to be close. Want to be more friend. Like a family. Doesn't mean anything. and i'm not with who now. I'm single. That's the reason i love single. Do whatever you like. Be whoever you want. But you made me become yours. When something happen. Again is my fault. But that's not. Totally not my fault. Feel like everyone will say "duhhhhhh. kelly lor" Swt" I'm okay with that already. So i wont feed back aything. I wrote every post with all what i thought. But always made you sad, angry, this and that. Dont you think if you want to view it, you gonna ready for all what i write? Then you wont be that upset. Grrrrrrrrrrr. I know Jeff totally wont give up the girl. Everyone know ler please. X yun told me this just now : "no 结果的事情，最好不要做" Ohh! She's right. I just need time. To cover these bad feelings. and Jeff. I do like you. As a very family. Just same to everyone. I love everyone. So ? Any problem ?

2010-03-17T15:55:00.000-07:00

YesTerDay !

Granpa and grandma visit us yesterday. Cook for us. and chit chat with mum. I love granma's cook ! Very delicious~~ Kampung feel. Whee. Gorgor finally found work. Hooooray !! Very thank to fungfung's dad. Cause the work is he help to find 1. We went out again in the afternoon. Faye still over night in my home. Kakaka. We fetch sylvester and met clinton, Hoho then together go CX. Spend almost 1hour at there. We decided to go beach then. Watch sunset. Fetch clinton back home 1st because he have tuition at night. Cant go with us =( I keep ask sylvester to drive faster because when on the way, the sun already ready to back home. Reach beach hotel. I run to the beach. Lucky still can see. Just for a little while. We take photo, play and talk at there. I'm wearing sport shoes. But still step and walk on the sand. Who know~~~~~ The sand keep going into my shoes. Awwww. Lan c derh shoes. ~.~ Hoho so kind again. Help me clean my shoes. Inside really many sand. I'm wearing stocking lagi. Aiks. We at there almost two hours i think. Then want to have dinner and watch movie. Before we leave, we go toilet. They go into girl's toilet and we go into boy's toilet. Haha. Just for a while~ Suddenly funny thing happen. Faye dunno how to take the tissue. She doing the action like the tissue is auto senser 1. We all laugh so so loud. Then my bro and Hoho keep tease her. Very funny! If you at there, and you hear what them tease, you sure laugh like us too. Laugh dao stomach ache. xD After that, took a photo in toilet. Then went to dinner. With dad and mum. We saw tisu at the restaurant. Automatic we all laugh again. xp Go to center.Point after that. They played race car. Then we watch "Remember me". Soooooooooooooooooooooooo not nice. We dunno what the movie is showing to us. The movie just end in the very weird way. When the cinema light turn on, we all's expression was like "finish already mehh?" Haha. Bored~~ Sern keep say toooooo nice. Nice than new moon. Haha. Cause last time he watch new moon also feel like "already finish the movie ahh?" LoL. Really dunno what the movie trying to share. Arghhhhh. Waste my money. After movie all back home. Me and faye play comp again. Until 4am. ~~~~.~~~~~ 3days movie, 3days beach hotel, 3days comp. Haha. Thanks a lot ya faye. You here with me, i doesn't feel alone. =D

2010-03-17T09:39:00.000-07:00

15.03.10 Rebecca go tuition in early morning. X yun went home. Me and gorgor do something for the new home. Oh yaa! Did i mention about new home? Haha. Bro bought apartment. We moving in next month. Not very excited. Because that home almost same size with now's home. A little bit big only. and because i slow slow learned to sleep alone in my room now. So i scare later if move to new house, everything gonna restart. Aiks. Continue to the day. Ask faye to wake up. Together with us. After rebecca tutiton, fetch her and we all 4 together go new home. Eat breakfast~~ Then we go fetch Sylvester, and go 1Borneo watch "Alice In Wonderland". So nice ! If 3D, i think it will be super nice. But Sabah so outdated. No 3D。 ==" After watch movie we shopping a while in there. Consider as shopping. But dint buy anything. xp Rebecca went home after that. She scare already. Haha. She say go out with us very tired. @.@ Then me and faye back home. Online. Go out yum cha almost at 10pm. With aaron, fungfung, ppey, yoyo, sern. and of course got Sylvester and my brother too. Suddenly fung's dad call my brother. Fungfung argue with his dad. In front of us. So fierce~ I think fungfung and ppey attitude just learn from their dad. Cause they just a little thing then very very angry already. Fung! This year SPM already. Be more guai okay? We will support you and Ppey. Don worry. But if want to leave home, totally not support ahh =p When yum cha, i sms-ing with Jeff. I tell him i want to take away drink for him. Cause he cant out with us, parents scold. He just keep kidding with me. But i decided just take to him. Wanna give him a suprise~ That time i msg my bro to tell him that. Because fungfung just sit beside at me. I scare he angry on Jeff. Just because i take away drink for him. Scare he argue with Jeff. Aiks. So hard that time. Fungfung keep ask. @.@ Fung you got see this ahh? Hehehehee. Don angry ahh. Ignore this. =p I do the star together with fungfung. But i ask yoyo help me gave mine to Jeff. When yoyo put on the motor, sern sweep the star to floor ==" That time i was like "????????" Really got a biy 过份ohh~~ But because sern help me take the drink to Jeff, so i forgive it. Blerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I successful gave Jeff suprise. Haha. Me, Faye, Bro, Sern and Yoyo go beach hotel again after that. Talk a little while at there. Just because we don want to back home early. Whee. bad kid. xD Back home almost at 12am. Play comp again until 3am. Beh tahan then go sleep. Haha. Again with a day. =D

celebration ! dramatic/excited/crazy day (part 2)

2010-03-17T02:33:00.000-07:00

celebration ! dramatic/excited/crazy day (part 2)

We back to Secret recipe. I saw x yun. and i straight go in front of her and cry. I tell her. Tell her what happen. Just a little while. Rebecca came back too. Everyone keep asking her okay or not. She scolded me. Because i'm crying like shit. and that day i got make up ! Really like those drama, when girl cry, the tears is black 1. ==" She tell everyone that she's okay. She ask we all go back home bath. Night's plan still continue. She ask us to smile again when night. Everyone seem not really in the mood already. But still. Agree with rebecca. Rebecca say she left yoyo and sern in car. Ask them talk good good. and be fine back. No matter how, must come back. 女王的旨意~ Then we all go back to bath, all girls together with my gor. In car, we girls talk about the couple a bit. and tell them story. Haha. That time mood really raise back already. Maybe because we all together talk this and that. So i wont think more. My head just keep singing "tonight gonna be a good night". After reach home, we girls talk again in room. Laugh so loud. All mood coming back. Thanks a lot to rebecca. She make us all feel so fine. =) Then we go near at wong kwok one restaurant to have dinner. Everyone was good. But yoyo gastric. So pity. Sern drive off and go buy medicine. I smile. I tell yoyo, you and sern this couple really weird. Today made us so tired~ She smile too. Wait so long then sern came back. He find the medicine at 6 pharmacy if i wasn't wrong. Everywhere is closed he say. Lucky last last still found. That time heart warm warm. Because of this xoxo couple. After dinner, we decided go beach hotel to play true or dare. xp We really went there and played. Very fun ! I enjoyed it. Me and faye even promise each other must hug Jeff. Haha. But somehow not everyone enjoy it. Because they taught that is boring and some say the punishment very over. IDK. @.@ There's many this hug this, this kiss this. Haha. We play with loud sound. Sern keep scold. xD Took many photo. After that, we go Tanjung Aru yum cha. X yun teach me and ppey do the star. Use toothpick. =D Very hard ! For me. Maybe my hand not suit for handicraft. Haha. I try very hard to do that, just because wanna give Jeff. Whee. Then, The Bed again. This time we go VIP room. So comfortable in there. Because got sofa~~ I bring the toothpick from Tanjung Aru to The Bed. I wont give up. =p We girls was so tired. We took photo with Jeff. Hug him here and there. Haha. That day he very popular too~ Everyone want to hug him. xp and i finally done with my star ! So So happy when done. I gave to Jeff. But when he back home, he say he broke it. =( We play quite a long time in there. Jeff, Fung, Ppey, Sern and Yoyo went back early. Cause sern gonna fetch his brother. Then we go yum cha again. Before yum cha ! Fungfung tell me his dad dont let them in. I guess his dad angry them go out untill late late again. After a while, they ask my bro to fetch them. Together yum cha~ Pity them. They very angry on their dad too. Clinton half drunk already at there. After yum cha~ Back home. Tired tired day. Again is 4am. Rebecca, faye and x yun over night in my home. Happy ! Because i don like to be alone. When i lay down, review all about the day. I will always remember this day. Deep in my heart. My friends, I Love You All !! and sorry for late updated this. I'm busy with those photos. Facebook can see it all ! I'll upload some in here if i'm free. But not the true or dare's photo. Thats very private. =p

Celebration ! Dramatic/Excited/Crazy day (Part 1)

2010-03-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

14.03.10. We celebrate for kelvin (my brother), HoHo and FungFung's birthday. We almost 21 people. Too many people. So i guess we sure will have some problem. I prayed to God. Pray that we will have a wonderful day. But it's not happen like what i wish. Problems come. With the 1st one, Ka Hou was seriously ill. So he cant join us. But we still continue on our plan. Reach K.K, meet at MC Donald. Then sern tell me ivy's home been visit by robber. unfortunately, cash and her grandma's heritage been steal. =( So i pretend normal when she come, cause i don want she think more about that. We decided to choose our movie seat for self. Choose the number that self like. and i arrange tantan and x yun sit together. =p and others all choose by self. But when Jeff choose, i keep 暗示 him to sit with me. xD After choose the ticket. Boys and Girls seperate. We girls go to POPULAR. They bought some book. We even take photo in it. In the book store. Haha. It's my 1st time. We watched UNDER THE MOUNTAIN. Adventure movie. Quite nice. We 20people sit for 3 rows. They keep make noise when watching movie. ==" Me and tyson so concentrate on the movie. Just talked a bit. Tyson ? Haha. yeap. He changed place with Jeff. Sob sob. =( After movie, we rush to Secret Recipe. Because that time almost 4pm. and Ivy is going back home when 4.30pm. Reached there. Laughing, talking, take photo. I suddenly found sern expression changed very fierce. and when i want to take photo with him, he dint even look at me. I dunno what happened. He suddenly go out when we wanna take photo with the cakes and the birthday boy. Silently. So yoyo go out and find him. and i saw him back. But not with yoyo. So i tell him, i tell him yoyo go find him. But he just act like nothing. and i go out to find yoyo. Call her for twice then she pick up the phone. Found her back and take photo. Then we wanna take group photo. and sern sit there with sylvester. I go behind him and ask them to take photo. Everyone realize there's something happened. Sylvester ask him go take photo. and everyone asking too. Then i heard he tell sylvester "我坚持不去" @.@ Then we all just take anyway. I saw him go out again. After that, yoyo go out too~ Rebecca starting find her. I go out and ask Hoho them. Then when i wanna run to in front and find. Hoho automatic accompany together go. So kind him. I cant find her. Cant find sern too. Then i remember seem is aaron following yoyo. So i called aaron. and he say sms don call. ==" I ask him what happened. ask him where is yoyo. He tell me yoyo was keep running. Lost her mind. Then i go and search everywhere. Me and Hoho. Rebecca and Ppey. When i find, just like the scene that appear in drama. Peoples finding a person anywhere with like crazy. We just scare that yoyo will do something wrong. and we want to console her. Aaron keep in touch with me through msg. Tell me where they're going. 我们从上追到下。里面追到外面。Yoyo你真的可以参加赛跑了。我们两组人都试过跟到一半他们就不见了。跑很快！追到一半，我已经好累好累了。一路上HoHo都陪着我跑。突然看到俊胜！好恐怖的表情。他跟我讲了一番好恐怖的话。My heart was beating so so fast. and then i found yoyo them. Already together with rebecca and ppey. I rush in front of yoyo and tell her fast fast go find sern. They need communicate. When i said where is sern, i dunno i ruined everything. I still remember the scene that aaron scold me. =( But that time my mind just want yoyo go talk with sern. Because sern already calm down. When i told yoyo to go find at car park there, she run again. Of course, we run too. So fast so fast. We all just run and run. and when reach the car park. "BANGGGG" 我看着Rebecca被车撞上。车子把她撞倒，跌在地上。That moment, my heart stopped beating. and my tears cant stop falling down. What the hell is going on? Then many people come and see whether she okay or not. She say she okay. But she want us to tell yoyo them she's hurt. She want to let the couple be fine back. I told sern bout rebecca's hand almost broke. Sern rush to rebecca and bring her to car. He want to bring her to hospital. I can clearly hear the sound of cry. Of yoyo, Ppey, and me. My heart really like been punish by a hard way. After they go, my head keep coming out the scene that rebecca been hit by car. Here really wanna thank HoHo very very much. He accompany me and Ppey go back to secret recipe. and console us all the way back. Thanks so much !

2010-03-04T22:20:00.000-08:00

Brother, Hoho, and fung birthday so soon ! But before that..... EXAM. Everyone seem like very busy with the exam. I'm still like the same. Read at the last minute. Nothing wrong maa =p Last time talk long with fungfung. Until last last. No conclusion. Cry whole long night. Thank Jeff very much. If not him, i dunno cry until when. Today i talked naturally with fungfung. Very very nice talk. I taught this will be a very good day. But who know.. After school. Dad have a little little car accident. Until rm300 fly away. Because he argue with that people. Actually is my fault. Because i keep talking with him. =( Yesterday's yesterday bro also have car accident. With motor. and sis's home got dirty things. Aiks. Dunno what had happened. Just like a very bad year. Ming dunno what happened too. She don want go party with us. Party for brother them. Hmmmm. Is it because like she say ? Nobody talk with her. But i want to explain ! We too many people. If everyone one to one talk, then all will be so bored. Thats why must like few people talk, and everyone just listen beside or tease here and there, then everyone laugh. Thats our group~ Always like that 1 ahh. Sob. Really dunno how le. Oh ya ! Jeff this few days very popular~ Haha. Faye want dance with him, Ivy want go movie with him and yoyo sayang him more. xD Recently met a guy. Very kind, loving and his face just always hanging a warm smile. Love to watch his smile. But not really dare to close with him. Haha. Some reason laa =p But say 1st ! I'm not falling in love with him ahh ==" and the only bad thing that i realize today. He always that kind with everyone. Swt. Then not very good already. Hahaha. Now I'm using a very good way to face all those problem. Gonna always have the mind that "everything gonna be fine". Gambateh yo kelly !

2010-03-01T22:20:00.000-08:00

Okay. Today i'm very emo. and my mood is up down up down. LoL! I had cold war with fungfung AGAIN. Then i got my new handphone today. and i'm still thinking how to help Jeff. We late for the planning to their birthday. Lots of thing more. WTF. What happen ? Everything seem like very in disorder. Is it because other people? Or because of me? Those thing just keep coming to me. Huh. Fine. I got my new hp. LG GD580. Lollipop. Yesterday go shopping with dad them. I just keep on staring the phone. and i said " so nice !" Just for twice or triple time. and today. When i finish school. My dad say "nah". He gave me the phone. WOW. So so so unbelievable. I asked him many time how much is the phone. Haha. Because is it very cheap so that he bought it? But then my brother say 800++. Wow again. After that.....................My dad ask me pay him back. ==" But it's okay. I love the phone very much. Pinkie =) Oh yaa ! I found the clip that axel jump. Waiting for the permission =)

2010-02-27T23:52:00.000-08:00

Here's some photos =)

I got tattoo on my hand =p

With rebecca 8连拍 =D

All girls. Colourful theme =D

Eating~

Spot the colourful shirt and the couple? =)

yo !

Nice ler Jac =)

In toilet =D

Sisha~ Strawberry flavour =)

Sweet kan them xp

2010-02-27T23:42:00.000-08:00

As i said. Yesterday went to installation night. Pey slept at my home. After whole crazy night, she almost wake up at 2pm. I'm tired too. But i just dunno why i woke at 10am something. and cant close my eyes again. Wait for rebecca. Because she say she will come at 1pm. So i play my comp and i update my blog. Play play play until i forget what time, rebecca msg me and say she will come around 2pm. So i go to take a very short nap. and she finally come. We 3 girls choose the earings and necklace those together. Talk this and that. Found that almost 4pm already. So i say curl rebecca's hair 1st. Curl curl curl. The time pass so fast. Pey go bath and prepare. Until 5pm++ x yun came. Then after that faye come. Started war. We rushing here and there. Make up, change clothes. Haha. I feel so funny. Because we just chit chat until forget we have many things still haven do. Almost 7pm like that, rush into car, go to the Sabah Golf & Country Club. Reach there, feel uncomfortable. Because many people and it's my 1st time attend a formal night. We had a chop on our hand. It's like tattoo. So nice =) After go in, my 1st sight is Axel. Haa. Colourful. He wore a colourful shirt. After that, saw many many leng nui. But leng zai ? Less. Just few can say okay. Say real 1, we girls got a bit disappointed. The night finally start almost at 8pm. ==" We sang NEGARAKU. Haha. With all those formal dress and stand straight to sing that formal song. xp The perform very nice show. With all those popular song. Lady gaga, sean, taylor, beyonce & bla bla bla. Even the sorry sorry by super junior. Haha. Got one all girls sang "Use Somebody". Beside our that table keep follow the "somebody" Very nice ahh ! A couple. They really make us pay attention on them. Because when we reach and after awhile, they argue. Very exaggerate. Not very loud. But in there, can say loud. After a short time, they holding each other hand come in. and when play game. The DJ ask a boy say something very romantic to a random girl. The boyfriend say wanna help the guy. So he go around and pick up all the flower on table. and go in front to his girlfriend. and gave her. Wow. That scene. All scream so loud. If you at there, you will feel " SO SWEET! " One more. Axel done a very talent thing. JUMP OVER A PEOPLE. What do you think the pose the people that jump by him ? Is stand straight. Very "@.@" right? and he really jump over his friend. Clap your hand ! If i found the clip that he jump, i'll post up =) All of us scream so loud again. haha. That night all of them so so so leng nui. My girls. Kekeke. Jac the most leng 1 among all of us! Like barbie doll ohh. We leave almost 11pm. We say want to go clubbing. With all of the boys. But when we all meet, they say fungfung's dad angry. Very angry. Then pey also angry. Cause she say her dad don let them play. Don let them free. She even talk loud that she wanna go back home to take all her shirt and money then go away from home. =x But some of us really not support this idea. Last last all meet at fungfung house. They cannot go out already. Kena scold. and pey feel very down. Because today we all said together go. All go. But now she cant go le. I see her like want cry le. I cheer her up. and tell her still have next time. After all we still going to clubbing. That time already 12am++. We went to The Bed. Dance and drink. But we girls just keep sit at there. Haha. I'm not really like to dance & shake with all those people in dance floor. I think them same as me too. I mean my girls =p and i had sisha for 1st time. Nothing special. Even no taste. Unless you very deeply take it. I saw another them again. Cause they rob my sisha. xD Not really long in there. Cause my dad msg me and brother. He ask we better don back home. and he call me and gorgor to sleep at fungfung house. He say he changed the home lock. I called him and he dint pick up the phone. So we left The Bed and go eat at Foh Sang again. But Jeff and Rebecca back home. That time is around 2am already. Jeff so silent that day. No too much smile and laugh too. After fetch them home. I sms Jeff. He really not that fine. Sob Sob. I know what is the feeling. That the one you love cant love you back. Jeff. I always thinking that you are a good man. Really. You're not useless. One day you will talk to her naturally. I bet. But if one day, if you really feel tired already. Just let it go. She will be full of happiness. Don worry. Because so many people that loving her. We too. =) and now turn Sern. His brother msg him and scold him. Because today he got work, but he still play until midnight. So they put me down at Foh Sang then back home. Huh. So many sad thing ahh. Me and X yun and Faye very tired already when eat. and our legs so pain. Wearing heels right. =( Those boys still playing car at there. ==" We follow aaron's car fetch tyson back. Hoho the driver =) Faye and X yun slept in car. Haa. Too tired. Then we all back home. On the way back home, i ask gorgor what had fungfung's dad said ? He tell me one sentences that make me feel i agree very much. "他们越来越过分。本来讲十二点回。然后又一点回。现在四点才回家" Very agree. But fungfung's dad~ If two month one time like this can..? I think can right? and i know why you feel that angry. Because when my gorgor like that. I'm very angry too. Like they forget what they had promise you. Is it ? After this year. I trust you sure will let fungfung free already. This year we SPM. We know. and we all try to study hard. Really 1. So don worry yo. Be kind more with your kids maa =D Reach home almost at 3.30am. Remove make up lagi. arghhhh. But we seem still full of energy. Talk with gorgor. Then gorgor go sleep. We girls continue talk talk again. Talk crap. Really crap. Until i feel sleepy. Tell them to sleep. Swt. What a crazy dayy~~

4.30am
Dream !

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2010-02-26T11:34:00.000-08:00

2010-02-26T11:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday ! Boys say go clubbing. and they say don't want bring girls. So me and pey, yoyo and sern go yum cha at yoyo. Met gorgor and aaron together. They just come drink awhile and then back to cyber. Laugh and talk crap at there. Until 9.40 something. We go fetch Jeff. Bought a cheese egg sandwiches to him. Because when MSN he tell me he dint eat dinner, so i think he not yet eat. So kind me =p Yoyo got one also. Give desmond and Hoho^^ Bring him together we all go Cyber X. Met all of them. After that, sern,yoyo and sylvester go fetch tan tan come. All gather. and we go FireFly. Me and pey suddenly feel like don want back home already. haha. So we beg gorgor to let us use his car. Finally is sure can. xp We follow to firefly and all of them act yeng yeng. xD After that me and pey, yoyo and sern go round round with the car. Haha. It's 12am++. We dunno where still got place can play. Just a while, gorgor call me. He say back to firefly and fetch them. @.@ Firefly too many people. So they decided go The Bed. When reach The Bed. Really wish can go in together. But me wear dao so home look. =( We go again. This time finally got place to go. Cyber X. Hahaha. Back to the cyber and play. I watched a video at there. Very Very Very touch. Straight cry in the Cyber. Will put in the new post later. Play until 1.31am. I remember the time because play until that time, the light all close. ==" Cyber want close already. They use close light to alert us. Haha. Play awhile again. Then we back. Back to The Bed. Tan tan suddenly say can go in. No people guard. So we all just follow. When in there, my heart beat so fast. and i cant clearly see everyone. Everyone was like blinking blinking. The music was big, the light was too shine. @.@ Dizzy dizzy. Cant even stand good good. Like drunk walk. xp Go to the dance floor a while. and back to the seat. Listen to the song. Watching those peoples. I saw the another them. Boys. They all like very high. Haha. Inside less leng nui. Aiks. Almost 2am++. We go eat at Foh Sang. Everyone was discussing the girls in there. Pheww. After eat, we just stand around at the car park. Talk and see all of them playing car. Go one round, two round, three round. With speed. Play some fireworks too. Of course the small 1. =p Play play play until everyone realize it's already very EARLY. Then all go back home.

3.52am. Home sweet home.

Back !

2010-02-25T18:01:00.000-08:00

1st. Very very sorry to my dear blog. Feel lazy to update. Actually many things had happen. But when today i feel like want write this and that. Draft in my head already, tonight, I'll tell myself " tomorrow laa" After tomorrow, "next time laa" Haha. Chinese new year. Nothing special. Not really exciting too. My sister back to KK for only a week. Just because my dad taught she only have one week school holiday. =( After she went back to KL, i'm learning to sleep alone. Very hard !! My brain too much space. It cant stop me thinking something ridiculous. Wtf. So i always watch watch watch drama until my eyes really wanna close then i go sleep. So tired of it. My brother. Still like usual. Always go out go out. Very angry on all of them. So everytime i talk with them about brother, fire raise up in heart.I ever tell them don go out with my brother OFTEN. and before cny, i told fungfung and yoyo, don go out with my bro when cny. I forget which day, my bro say want go out. and i found out it was with them. My mind straight scold "don you remember what i told you?!" Our family dinner when cny just always miss a person. It was CNY. It was a clebrate day. Was full of happiness day. and where is the person? OUTING and have fun .I'm not prevent you all for going out to have fun and enjoy. But at least set a time ! Everyday?! You don need to work? You don need to study? Please ! I just hate that my brother promised we to find work, but at last he just remember to find you all out and PLAY. Tomorrow our school organised installation night. We all girls go. The boys was late for the ticket. So many people going. Until the ticket sold out in two days. Huhu. I'm actually very hope the boys can go. This were our last year. Will next year have this chance again ? =( I'm gonna have fun tomorrow ! and i really hope can find ticket for boys.

2010-01-30T18:48:00.000-08:00

I had a great shopping day with them when thursday^^ The only sad thing that is we almost forget ming. When she send the photo (True friends are never apart. maybe in distance, but not in heart. ) to me, I straight freeze for 5 second. I'm really sorry !! Will upload happy photo late a bit =) Yesterday my bro tell me something about aaron. and after i hear, my heart "BOOM!" We really dunno how already. We laugh at behind smile infront. Tonight go dinner ! Baby full moon =D Lazy type already. zZzzzZz